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[review] L'OREAL Revitalift Stretch Mask

2012-01-29T00:59:00.002+07:00

I'm back with another update. It's been quite long since I did my skincare review, you know some old classic excuses. Work and whatsoever.
So, today I'm going to review another non-Korean/non-Asian mask I've used just now. It's L'OREAL Revitalift Stretch Mask. I bought this mask when I had a trip to KL last month and I only had a chance to wear this mask today. I bought this one in Guardian for like RM 13 if I'm not mistaken. Quite affordable but still more expensive compare to Korean mask sheets :D

The highlight of this product is the stretch mask word at the package. Yes, you could stretch this mask until it fit tightly on your face. It was quite different to those Korean mask sheets I've been using which happened to be a bit loose like you just put them nicely over your face and you're done. So, I tried the stretch effect and it worked (well, it had to lol).

See how it hugged my face tightly? xD

♫ Concept

Infused with revitalift ingredients: proven efficacy on anti-wrinkle + firming
★ Pro-Retinol: a powerful anti-wrinkle active, stimulates the cultaneous regeneration for thicker epidermis layer
★ Fibre-Elastyl: a patented firming active, protects elastin fibres from degradation
★ Hyaluronic Acid, well-known for its hydrating properties

♫ Product Description

Soft and stretchable, the tissue mask is developed to fit perfectly on Asian facial form, it stretches with precise adhesion on every inch of skin for a perfect fit.

♫ Direction

1. Unfold the mask delicately.
2. Place the mask on the face starting from forehead and nose bridge, and stretch to fit the rest of the face for a perfect fit.
3. Gently lift two sides along the jawline for the lifting action.
4. Relax for 10-15 minutes while pressing the mask softly to enhance absorption.
5. Remove mask and dap the excessive serum until complete absorption.

♫ My impression

I was left very impressed with the product. My skin texture becomes yummier after one usage only. Supple, of course. Moisturized, of course. Soft and super hydrated as well.
As promised from the package that after first usage: skin is soft and hydrated. Skin feels supple.

It said that after frequent time you'll get more results such as fine lines and wrinkles are visibly reduced, skin is firmer, radiant and so on.
It even promised more after 4 weeks: 100% women agree their face contours are like lifted (self-assessments, 53 women, 2 applications a week), skin looks more elastic and younger.

WOW.

♫ Will I repurchase?

As much as my addiction to my Asian masks, I'll definitely purchase this one again once I've got a chance to find it. I don't think this one is available in my hometown D:

Goodnight and Goodbye

2012-01-24T18:43:00.000+07:00

To you my beloved cousin,

How’s there? I hope you are doing alright. It's been hours since you were gone.

I still remember the last time we saw each other. It was like only a month ago. At that time, I even promised you that we’ll see each other again because I couldn’t come to see you and the others on my last night in Bandung. You replied “see you next year”. There’ll be no next year, after all.

I still remember the times when we had so much fun. You were practically the only cousin with the closest age to mine. Only one year gap. I looked through some old pictures and found that even since we were toddlers we were close. You had this long curly hair as a little boy and it was braided :D in that picture we hugged each other tightly.

I still remember the times when you lived in Pekanbaru. Primary years if I’m not mistaken. That was seriously fun. You were one of my favorite cousins and will always be. As we’ve grown up although we only met once a year every time I visit Bandung, we never put any distance in between. We always had fun, as a little kid we watched anime, trying to act like those characters, running madly around the house, playing at the swings at the park nearby the house, swimming at the hot springs, eating snacks and so on.

I still remember few years back on our teenage days, we were young and wild and free. We used one of your friend’s car to go to Dago and had fun. You were instantly became one of my drinking buddies :) Those nights when I sneaked out from the house, met you in Circle K and had more fun with you and your friends. We would chat about stupid things.

With you, there was no sadness. Ever. Only fun and laugh. Carefree. You see, almost every sentences I wrote had the 'fun' tag on them. Therefore, I would live and continue my life without you and there was no reason to be sad. I might be mourning today but tomorrow as the sun rises, I would live my life and laugh freely again. For you.
Please watch me and the others from up there.

See you. Love you.

For Me. For You. For Everyone.

2011-12-31T23:17:00.000+07:00

I always wonder why time flies really quick. It was like an irony. How I wanted time to travel faster at some point in this year and now, I'm not ready to face 2012 -another new year- at all, yet. I always thought that I haven't done much, I haven't do this, I haven't do that, I haven't visit that place yet, I haven't achieve what I supposed to do. But then, that's why we have a new year. A new spirit, to recharge everything. So, in 2012, do all the things you wanted to do, all the things you supposed to do, visit all the places you always dreamed of, love somebody with all of your heart, make peace with God, make more and more friends, and so on.

As for me, I guess this year was... pretty much normal. I had few little twists but they were not that important. Just... some normal stuffs happened in our daily life. I made some resolutions on January 2011, let's do some quick recap!

I got a new job and... I don't know how to say it. I started to love the job and I hope you -my job- will love me back so we can love each other :DD I got stressed over the first few months but it's all better now.

I saved money, I went for a holiday meeting some old friends few weeks back using my own money. I watched Super Show 3 concert with my own money as well. I met the boys finally ;)

I read few books to get more inspiration for the current story I've been writing for the past year. I'm trying to finish the book by next year.

But too bad, I didn't shed some pounds, in fact I gain weight T.T my friends said it was because I love my job too much LOL. Few days ago me and one of my colleague saw my old pictures back when I was still new in the company and my colleague said that I looked skinnier back then but I looked kind of nerdy and out of place as well. HAHAHAHAH.

I'm still very much attached to the fandom world but it was far lessen compared to last year. Work was consuming me, so I catch up with my fandom life only on weekend and... weekdays sometimes. Tee hee.

I haven't found the other half, the perfect partner in crime I wanted to spend the days with. I'm just... not ready, probably. Lots of friends, mother/father's friends, relatives, grandmas, and blahblahblah had asked me more than once about a "special friend" but I really don't feel like to think about that kind of stuff. I had my own little mind and perspective regarding these kind of stuff which might sounded abnormal to others :D

My relationship with God. I always feel that it got worse but I DO pray every single night. Because I mean... to whom I always wanted to put 100% trust to?

So, enough rambling. This is my resolution for 2012. For Me. For You. For Everyone.

1. better relationship with God and every human being in this world, making more and more friends
2. career advancement
3. move out from Pekanbaru
4. diet diet diet
5. finish the longfic, publish it as a book/novel
6. be more mature... a little bit :D less selfish, maintaining my anger management/mood swings
7. make my parents HAPPY
8. SUPER FUN HOLIDAY! (clue: Singapore/beach/sea)
9. k-pop concert (clue: meet him again/one of my boys)
10. just trying my luck, getting married.

The last resolution, I just wanted to try my luck all along. I always had this little dream to get married at the age of 23.
Keep your fingers crossed and mine too ;D

Happy New Year. Have an awesome 2012. I wished all your resolutions and dream would come true!
DALE!

[review] Skin Food White Chocolate Firming Mask Sheet

2011-11-09T21:56:00.000+07:00

hello lovelies ;)
i tried this mask a week ago but apparently i couldn't find a perfect time to write a review about this product D: i simply passed out every time i came back from the office. oh well, sometimes i got a little free time but mostly i used it for kpopping or writing. hello, my fanfiction is at the urgent stake! I need to write moreeeeee.

Okay, back to the topic. This mask I've tried was the Skin Food White Chocolate Firming Mask Sheet.
Another day, another mask sheet. tee hee xDD
I got this mask by mistake. At first I asked my mom who went to Malaysia few months ago to buy the Skin Food Chocolate Mask for me (the one in the super cute jar) and it was a wash-off mask. My mom just handed the list to the SPG and the SPG gave her this mask sheet =.="
But never mind, I would love to try any mask especially from Skin Food ^^

♫ Concept

Firming facial mask pack sheet with white chocolate for a slim and firm face.

♫ Product Description

Special food for the skin to eat. Contains lots of nutritive and energetic ingredients such as fresh plants, fruits and etc, to maintain our bodies healthy and lively.

♫ Direction

To use: remove the mask from outer packaging and unfold. Leave on your face for 10 - 15 minutes. Massage in any excess liquid.

♫ My impression

Well, this mask didn't impress me as much as the other Skin Food products/masks. It was supposed to give the firming effect on my face. Well, actually I could just use any mask sheet and voila! I got the firming effect which could be better than this. Could it be because of the fact that my face was already so firm in the first place? LOLS. As for the slimming face effect I simply never trusted this kind of effect from ANY masks. EVER. You could convince me for whitening and blah blah but not for slimming effect because I got a very round face and two chubby/mochi cheeks. It would be impossible to slim down my face =.="

See? My face is so... round!!

♫ Will I repurchase?

I don't think so D: I would love to repurchase tons of other Skin Food masks but not this one.

What's Your Mortal Sin?

2011-10-27T21:44:00.001+07:00

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	High
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

Your sin has been measured. You have committed many sins, but Gluttony is the mortal sin that has done you in. Just below, discover your full sinful breakdown and learn what it is about you that codemns you to hell.

I couldn't believe it. I wasn't into... Gluttony or so I thought. LOL.

[review] Neutrogena Deep Hydrating Mask

2011-10-24T21:24:00.001+07:00

Hello peeps!

I'm back with another mask ;D I obviously love mask sheet in any kind, any brand, any ingredients... well, I could call myself a mask-junkie. LOL.

I got this Neutrogena mask sheet from my colleague at the office, she went to Singapore for a medical check-up and she knew the fact about how much I love skin care (especially, mask) products to death. So she came back to Pekanbaru and gave me this!

♫ Concept

Intensive hydrating, vitamin C formula for healthy, bouncy skin.

♫ Product Description

Neutrogena Deep Hydrating Mask is an intensive facial treatment mask that replenishes and restores moisture for deeply hydrated and bouncy skin. Shaped to fit the face, each mask instantly boosts skin's moisture level 12 times with a penetrating Vitamin C formula, leaving skin soft and dewy with a healthy glow.

★ Provides instant and long-lasting moisturization
★ Deeply hydrates skin cells to leave skin bouncy
★ Improves skin texture to leave it soft and smooth with a healthy glow

Dermatologist tested formula is:

★ Non-comedogenic
★ Alcohol-free
★ Fragrance-free

♫ Ingredients:

Water, Butylene Glycol, Ascorbyl Glocoside, Mulberry (Morus Alba) Root Extract, Aloe Barbadensis Extract, Dipotassium Glycyrrhizate, Cyclomethicone, PEG-60 Hydrogenated Castor Oil, Trioctanoin, Propylene Glycol, BHT, Sodium Myristoyl Glutamate, Xanthan Gum, Sodium Citrate, Citric Acid, Methylparaben, Ethylparaben, Sodium Hydroxide.

♫ My impression

I love mask sheet with hydrating title on it xD simply perfect when you got back from the hectic office activity and put this wet mask all over your tired face. voila! everything's back to normal again :)

This mask did hydrating my face despite of the weird chemical smell (which is not so irritating in my opinion), my face became soft and bouncy ^^ (just like how it claimed on the package) but the effect only lasted until the next morning just like how mostly other mask sheets worked. Well, maybe I should use this mask more to get all the advantages perfectly ;D

The shape was perfectly fit to my face and the amount of the watery essence was just normal, not overly wet.

♫ Will I repurchase?

Maybe, if I could find it. Since my hometown was kind of lame in terms of skin care products (especially the imported one) I couldn't find it here obviously. Maybe I'll buy one box (I saw in some skincare blogs that it actually came in this box consisted of 5 mask sheets) when I'm going to Singapore or Malaysia in the future :D

PS: this is my first "western" mask ever, I usually try Korean or Japanese brand but Neutrogena is (definitely!) not disappointing at all ^^

[Review] The Face Shop - Salon Effect Pearl Collagen Mask Powder

2011-10-05T22:10:00.000+07:00

Back with another product ;D
Actually I've used this unique mask since few months ago but only recently I decided to give this stuff a review.
I bought this mask together with the Ying mask. I bought 2 packs, this one I'm going to review is Salon Effect Pearl Collagen Mask Powder while another one is Salon Effect Ceramide Collagen Mask Powder. The effect for both masks are different. The pearl one claims to give you clearer, brighter skin while the ceramide one claims to give you firm, hydrated skin. Both are my favorite after-effects xD well, actually I don't really need the pearl one because my skin was fair enough but I just couldn't help the clearer effect. oh well, the skincare addict soul in me.

Okay, let's go on with the product.

This is how it looks like. As you could see in the packaging, it's a DIY (Do It Yourself) mask. It's quite fun and that's why I called this unique in the first place.

♫ Concept

Pamper yourself with spa-quality modeling pack in the comfort of your own home. Excellent for soothing irritating skin the modeling pack is used after an intensive skin care massage treatment. It provides rich hydration to replenish enough moisture to

Ideal for achieving brighter and clearer skin tone. Arbutin and pearl extracts are the key ingredients in whitening skin complexion.

♫ Product desciption

The convenient mask powder for all skin types hydrates for a salon perfect facial from the comfort of home. Formulated with Arbutin and Pearl extract, this pack hardens to seal out air, leaving skin clear and smooth.

♫ Direction together with my impression

First, I took a bowl because it would be impossible to mix this mask anywhere else LOLS and I put 2 spoonful of the powder to the bowl and then I mixed the powder with the water with the ratio of 1:2.5 as the direction in the package said. So I put approximately 5 spoons to mix the 2 spoons powder nicely.

This is how the mask looks like. Despite of the ugly appearance it smells nice. I like it. After you're done, just simply apply the mask all over your face, thick and quick ;) after that just browse something, watch TV or whatever you love to do for 20-25 minutes.
If you applied the mask correctly, you will be able to peel it off nicely and said hello to super smooth skin! ^^ It's so smooth that I couldn't even feel any pore on my nose *not exaggerating!*

While it claims to brighten your skin, hmm I'm not very sure myself. I've just tried this mask once because the one I've used before was the ceramide one. So, just pray for the best result hehehe but I do really expect the clearer skin it claims.

♫ Will I repurchase?

Definitely, this one is my second pack already ;D

[Review] The Face Shop Imperial Herbs - Ying Mask Sheet

2011-10-03T21:21:00.003+07:00

Hello peeps! It's been quite a long time since I wrote in this blog. More over, work kills me. That's true, let me emphasize that for you. WORK LIFE IS KILLING ME.

Well, the job itself was fun actually but I've got some amount of stress on almost-daily basis. But, that's life, especially work life. Thank goodness for one of my stress-reliever hobbies aka writing, I've got a little space to break out which in my case, writing thousands of words and characters. My other hobbies couldn't be explained so well in this blog since it will be related to my Korean-freaky life LOLS. I've already promised under the sun, the moon and the stars that I SHALL NOT talk about Korean here. EVER.

Back to the topic aka the title itself, I've got another "sick" hobby or in my case could be called as addiction XD

I was, am and will always be a freaky person when it comes to skin care products especially those which coming all the way from the K-town. Okay, I mean Korea.

Actually this little addiction had started long time ago since I studied and stayed in Malaysia. I've been introduced to some Korean skin-care products, mainly mask by a friend of mine, Tia. My favorite products would be those from The Face Shop and Skin Food. I remembered that my first skin care/mask purchase were The Face Shop Raspberry Roots Collagen Eye Patch, Skin Food Banana Yogurt Mask and Skin Food Cucumber Soothing Mask. I bought the eye patch because I used to have this terrible eye bags (even worst than now) T.T thanks to my unorganized life back in college. As in Skin Food masks, I just bought them randomly LOLS.

In this post, I would like to give some of my thoughts about this mask I've just tried couple minutes ago ;)

Say hello to The Face Shop Imperial Herbs - Ying Mask Sheet.

I'm not really sure about this Imperial Herbs line since I was in hurry when I bought this mask along with the other two collagen masks I was supposed to buy in the first place so I didn't get to ask about the "history" of this product. I remembered last week I went to a water park and I got my skin burnt T.T and so my face! *crying* So I asked the SPG about what mask I shall use to reduce the burnt effect on my face and she gave me this Ying mask.

This is what I copied and pasted from The Face Shop (TFS) official website.

♫ Concept

On 100% of cotton sheet many well-known precious Chinese medicine herbs are soaked in to give dramatic result in a short time

♫ Description

Dioscorease Rhizoma And Japanese Cornel provide serious hydration and cell regeneration.

♫ Product Description

This mild, essence-type, all natural cotton mask sheet is concentrated with Dioscoreae Rhizoma and Japanese Cornel extracts to counterbalance ying energy and hydrate skin.

What is herbal therapy? Used to help regulate a person's energy, blood circulation, ying, yang, and spirit, our solution is drawn from on an ancient imperial prescription of five medicinal herbs that include twinleaf and asparagus root extracts, to revitalize and hydrate skin.

♫ Benefits of Dioscoreae Rhizoma:

★ Strengthens the abdomen

★ Counterbalances Ying energy

★ Softens and illuminates skin

♫ Benefits of Japanese Cornel:

★ Controls active oxygen

★ Counterbalances Ying energy

★ Softens and improves skin health

♫ My impression

It claims to hydrate skin and it really does. I like the scent especially. It fit nice and properly on my face just like any other TFS mask sheets. I felt my skin was getting moisturized perfectly especially when i applied the eco theraphy essence by the very same product, The Face Shop after I used the mask. My skin felt very very supple :) As for those benefits from the herbal ingredients (Dioscoreae Rhizoma and Japanese Cornel) I think I should use this mask more often in order to feel those benefits. tee hee.

The price was more expensive than the other mask from TFS I've tried before. I bought it for IDR 45,000 (around USD 5.3 with just a mere calculation of these days exchange rate between IDR and USD) which was pretty expensive compared to IDR 20000-ish masks I've used before.

♫ Will I repurchase?

YES! But maybe not in these days because I'm kinda broke right now D: some more I still have hundreds of my recent skin care products to be reviewed in the future LOLS

PS: I like the new blog interface ^^

Break Away

2011-09-09T19:07:00.001+07:00

i can't fvcking wait to get our from this town.
that's all i can say for this moment.

Do I Know... Myself?

2011-07-23T22:19:00.005+07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Check yours here

Most of the statements are insanely... correct XD

Make Up and Skin Care Haul (Kind of) LOL

2011-05-28T20:32:00.021+07:00

So today, a random Saturday.
I looked at my super messy make-up on my make-up table and I decided to at least tidying up a little bit. Yes, a little bit. I'm not good at tidying things up and soon I bet all those make-ups will be scattered on the table again just like earlier today. LOL.
While tidying the table, I had this light bulb on my head. Why not doing a simple review on those make-ups and skin care products. Okay, I admit it. I did this just to kill some time while I'm downloading some of my kpop stuffs :D

I. Make-ups
I hate make-ups. In my opinion, they simply ruin my face. I think that all those white heads are back because of the amount of make-ups I have to use on daily basis.

1. For foundation, I'm using BB Cream from Face Shop. Sometimes, I'm using the one from Maybelline as an alternate.
Both are pretty good and since I never had any problems with my overall skin, I prefer the Maybelline one since it's cheaper. A LOT. It has SPF effect too.

2. Eye Liner
I used to make Etude House as my ultimate choice for eye liner. Too bad my hometown doesn't provide this uber cute brand D: So, I put my choice on Face Shop. The color (I always wear black) wasn't too sharp and I have to apply it for multiple times until I could see a perfect line. Sometimes, in the morning I feel like screaming whenever my eye liner started to "act" LOL. Anyone can recommend me a perfect eye liner? Preferably, the liquid one :)

3. Mascara
One word. Maybelline. I think they've got the best mascara ever :D and no, I'm not working in Maybelline.
4. Blush on
I never used blush on until I'm working in my current workplace and they said that I was too pale. So, I decided to try Maybelline and it works quite well although like I said before, I hate make-ups but I guess I've got no choice.
5. Eye shadow
Just got my Etude eye shadow yesterday. It was free from the office, well, the one that I've got was actually from my colleague, thanks Mbak Tan :D Haven't give it a try. I hope it works well on me *finger crossed*
6. Lipstick
Not a big fan of lipstick. I prefer my lip gloss. But since it was free from my office, I shall use it everyday :D

II. Skin Care
Now, let's jump to my favorite part. Skin care. Compared to all those make-ups stuffs, I do love skin care products more. Sometimes, I think I've grown some kind of addiction to them. LOL. Because when I looked at my table, bathroom and even the fridge, I just realized that I've got quite a lot of them XD

1. Cleanser
This product works together with my make-up remover. I use Loreal remover and Face Shop green tea cleanser. Every single time I wiped those make-ups from my face with this cleanser I feel so happy hahaha.
2. Facial Foam
I trust Ponds. Only. Currently using the black color one. It feels kind of weird to wash your face with something black hehe.
3. Toner
This one is the most essential things on my daily skin care activity. I love my Ice Flower Face Shop toner! It has this cooling effect and I really love the smell.
4. Essence/Emulsion
The miracle water from SK-II. Read my SK-II post to read about this amazing product. Too bad, I don't know what to do once this miracle water finished because again, my hometown doesn't have SK-II store D:
5. Peeling
The old one from Face Shop. Too bad, they stopped the production. I wonder why, I don't even have any single problem with it. I used this product once in 2 weeks. It could really take your dead skins away, trust me XD
6. Black Head Remover
Thanks for Face Shop for this wonderful innovation, say goodbye to your hideous black head.
7. Mask
Or I should say lots of masks, in my case :D All my masks came from Face Shop. I've got the egg white pack, cucumber pack, raspberry roots sleeping mask and the brand new collagen mask powder. Sometimes I buy the various sheet too. See, I'm such a freak when it comes to masks :D

8. Eye Gel
I hate my dark circles just like the way I hate my black/white heads. No one likes them anyway. So, without thinking twice I bought this Face Shop Raspberry Root eye gel and I could say that my dark circles are getting better. But it only got worse right after my office's morning duty. Sigh.
9. Lip balm/lip gloss
For lip balm and lip gloss. I swear by The Body Shop. I really love their lip gloss, it avoids me to do something harsh to my lips such as peeling off the skins with my fingers. Eww. I know it's grossing you all.

So, what do you think? Am I a skin care products addict just like what my mom always say? LOL

NB: Finally write something in this blog after abandoning it for a long time :)

Insecure

2011-05-08T01:12:00.004+07:00

Here comes May.
I always feel super afraid and insecure when it comes to May.
Guess why?
Yes, my birthday. I've told everyone not to be so exaggerating when it comes to my birthday celebration because everyone needs to remember that my biggest phobia is getting old.
Please. Please. Please.
Maybe it was the responsibility, the demand for maturity, the commitment, the options, the aim for a better future, etc etc (yeah, the wrinkles kind of scared me too).
Most people will be asking me, what the hell are you afraid of? You are just turning 22 this year, for God's sake.
Okay, let's have fun like there's no tomorrow, just don't remind me that I'm getting one year older during our crazy-shit times. Tee hee.

Where Did I Leave It?

2011-04-13T20:52:00.002+07:00

I'm so into the mood of oldies stuffs these days. Not in a term of old songs or movies but the old stuffs from my life. The past.
I'm a kind of person who love to reminisce the past. Savoring the feeling of being a youth. No, I'm not that old but... you know me, ha! So it started when I read my old posts in this blog.
I've changed. We've changed. Everybody's changed.
I couldn't stop laughing whenever I read my old posts, the way I wrote and described things, the way I mentioned some people, the way I talked. It was just so... childish and young. I'm still a childish person until this very moment but I really can't help it. I was so funny and predictable.
Yesterday I've decided to take a look at thousands of pictures I've took with lots of people during my university days and I practically laughing so hard. How could we managed to live with all those stupid acts and shameless stuffs we did in the past. Well, I'm the one who did most of the stupid and shameless stuffs I guess LOL
But.. despite of the inappropriate acts, I miss it. I truly miss it <3

Fanfiction #10

2011-03-07T17:50:00.003+07:00

Title: The Bridge
Author: batgirl
Genre: ANGST (OH YEAH I’M SO BACK)
Rating: PG-15
Warning: Character death, over-rated fantasy, language, almost incest
Characters: Park Sang Hyun/Thunder, Li Xu, Sandara Park, Leeteuk, Ji Hyun and some minor characters
Disclaimer: LI XU IS MINE. OKAY KIDDING. YOU KNOW THE DRILL.

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When Sang Hyun opened his eyes, all he could see was white. For a second he thought he was blind because the whiteness was so pure, unlike the normal white you’ve seen before. The whiteness was almost blinding he had to squint his eyes to find some clue about his current situation right now. He was lying on top of something hard and beside all the suffocating white color he didn’t find anything abnormal.
Then, suddenly he remembered. He did some rewind on the scene inside his head. He remembered that he was on his sport car and someone called him on the phone when he stopped at the traffic light. It was a call from Sandara noona asking when he would come back home because everyone’s waiting for him since it was dinner time already. He remembered how pissed he was because whenever he hit the rewind button on his head he should go back to the scene he hated the most. Why, Ji Hyun? Why?
He remembered when his car collided, when he exceeded the speed limit, when he heard loud screeching sound and when he felt the scorching pain on his trembling body.
“Are you done?”
Sang Hyun startled, he was kind of forgotten about his current condition. He thought he was alone inside this pure never ending white color. He saw a man, wearing a white robe [WHITE AGAIN?] approaching him. The way he walked was so enchanting as if he was flying, Sang Hyun tilted his head to make sure he doesn’t seeing inappropriate things and maybe he hit his head way too hard on the accident because when he watched clearly, the man indeed walked on his feet.
Sang Hyun kept his lying position because he was kind of scared, this place looks like a hospital after all and that man could be the doctor in charge and he knew that most of doctors would barked at his patient when the patient trying to act strong by making a sudden movement when they were supposed to keep lying on the bed.
“Sorry kid, I’m asking you just now. Are you done?” the man asked.
“Done with what?” Sang Hyun stared at him blankly.
This is weird but he just realized that he didn’t feel any pain at all and oh my God, there was no single wound on his body. He held his own head and make sure everything was still complete. Head, check, eyes, check, ear, nose, lips, neck all check. Then he looked at his own body, covered with white robe as well [WHITE]. Hands, feet, fingers, all complete.
The man beside him started to giggle. Sang Hyun looked at him. Somehow, he felt so uncomfortable. Like he was naked or something.
“You are different.” He said. “Come with me.”
“To where?”
“Take some walk, stretching a little bit. You slept there for hours, just so you know.”
“What? Excuse me? Where are we?” Sang Hyun frowned and he sat still, refused to come all the way with the suspicious man. He could be some psychotic, to think about that, maybe he was placed in the wrong ward. Maybe someone sent him to mental institution instead of a proper hospital.
“Of all times you were here. You just asked the most important question now.” The man giggled again.
“Are we in a hospital? Am I in the correct hospital?” Sang Hyun asked. He started to feel impatient towards the white robe man. He spoke in such a slow magical tone, like he was singing.
The man couldn’t help but laugh now. The sound of his laugh almost angelic.
“You are so funny. Come on, everything will be explained later.”
Sang Hyun felt like he had no other choice, some more, he had this urge inside his head that he has to follow this man. It was weird.
“OMO!” he jumped a bit when he stepped his feet on the white surface that seems to be a never ending floor. It wasn’t hard like he expected to be in fact it was kind of fluffy. Like… like a cloud.
He hesitated at first but he started to walk and enjoyed the fluffy feeling on both of his feet. He peeked through his shoulder and he found out that he didn’t sleep on bed just now. It looked like a stone [WHITE] and somehow it made him shivered. He quickly walked, leaving the stone behind, towards the man in white robe. Sang Hyun purposely made a distance from that man because he scared something might go wrong.
It seems like he was walking forever when that man spoke again. “Here we are. Everyone’s waiting inside.”
Sang Hyun must be dreaming because there is this really huge door in front of him. It was even bigger than the one he had in his family mansion and of course, it’s white.
The door opened and Sang Hyun pinched his own upper left arm because he must be really dreaming. There were some people inside and all of them have these, Sang Hyun gulped, a pair of beautiful white wings on their back. He turned his eyes on the man beside him, asking for some clue when he almost dropped on his knee because the man beside him also has these wings thingy on his back. It appeared out of nowhere because as far as his sane memories could remember, he didn’t have those wings just now.
“Let’s find out what you’d left behind, shall we?”
Sang Hyun gulped again.

<3

“Ji Hyun, it’s time to wake up.”
Ji Hyun groaned and mumbled some weird words. She had a really weird dream last night. Sang Hyun was a part of it.
“Baby Ji Hyun… You need to wake up. The ceremony will start at 9 AM sharp and it’s already 7.15”
Ceremony. Of course, today is the ceremony. Ji Hyun opened her eyes to be welcomed by a busy Li Xu in front of her. He was busy tidying the bed and all of sudden he pulled Ji Hyun’s blanket making her groaned again.
“Come on baby.” He said while folding the blanket.
“You are not my maid stop doing this kind of thing every single morning.” Ji Hyun stared at Li Xu’s figure.
“Don’t tease my clean-freak side in such an early morning.”
“I still can’t believe he’s gone.” Ji Hyun mumbled, ignoring Li Xu’s attempt to make some jokes.
“I’m not either.” Li Xu replied as he managed to sit at the bed and hug Ji Hyun’s figure.

<3

I died. Okay. Breath in breath out. Maybe I was wrong, maybe this guy was wrong. What was his name again? Leeteuk? Okay, maybe Leeteuk was wrong. I couldn’t be dead. Not now. Not in such a crucial time. I have to get Ji Hyun from that scumbag Li Xu.
He heard giggles.
“Why?” Sang Hyun asked in annoyed tone.
“Nothing. You are just so funny. But sadly, I have to tell you again that I didn’t say anything wrong nor you heard something wrong. It’s confirmed that you were dead in a car accident.”
Oh dear God, help me.
“Of course, God’s trying to help you now. That’s why he sent me.”
“Where are we? Now I’m very sure we are not in the hospital.”
“It’s a secret.” Leeteuk winked.
“Heaven?”
“No… not yet, kid. It’s quite far from here and in order to reach the holy heaven you have some tasks to do.”
“What kind of task?”
Even a dead person still has a task to do. Great. Sang Hyun barked inside his mind.
“Go back to the world and fix some stuff.” Leeteuk said. “Everything’s a mess down there.”

<3

Sang Hyun once again opened his eyes but he wasn’t welcomed by pure blinding whiteness. Instead, he stared at hundreds of green leaves hanging above him. He tried to get up and when he adjusted his sight he realized that he was lying under a huge maple tree.
He knew this place… This was the place where he used to hang out with some other spoiled brats from his high school. They often skipped classes and came here to fool around.
“Hey.” Sang Hyun gasped as he didn’t expect anyone to be here, some more shouldn’t he be invincible?
“You didn’t think that I will let you go down alone, did you?”
Of course, Leeteuk would follow him. What did he expect? Sang Hyun thought bitterly.
“Why here?” Sang Hyun asked. His eyes wandered around. No one in sight.
“You have a strong memory on this place. I just followed you actually.”
Then Sang Hyun remembered. He was furious that day and he couldn’t help himself. The day when Ji Hyun announced that Li Xu proposed to her and she gladly accepted. The day when his car accident happened.

<3

From: Park Sang Hyun
To: Ji Hyunnie <3
Ji Hyun, what do you have in your mind? You must be insane. Why you decided to marry that stupid foreigner?

To: Park Sang Hyun
From: Ji Hyunnie <3
Sang Hyun, Li Xu’s not a fucking foreigner. Get over with it.

From: Park Sang Hyun
To: Ji Hyunnie <3
Yeah, he’s not. That’s why he got such a stupid name.

To: Park Sang Hyun
From: Ji Hyunnie <3
His father is Chinese. He has a Korean name too, just so you know. Please get your mind straight.

From: Park Sang Hyun
To: Ji Hyunnie <3
I hate you. Go and marry that bastard.

<3

“Your mind was so full with hatred by the time you were dead.” Leeteuk stated. “Hatred towards your parents, Ji Hyun and her fiancé.”
He brushed some off the leaves that fell on his head and shoulders and then he continued, “Your hatred somehow triggered some unfortunate events for them. Do you want to know what actually happened?”
“What’d actually happen? I knew that Ji Hyun and that Li Xu’s married and they are going to live happily ever after blah blah blah.” Sang Hyun blurted.
“Sadly, that wasn’t happen.”
Sang Hyun’s jaw dropped. Leeteuk’s face somehow turned grim.
“Your parents, your sister together with Li Xu and Ji Hyun went to this restaurant to have a talk about the wedding, one year after your death. There was an accident in the kitchen and the gas was leaking. It was a huge accident, they need one whole day to turn down the fire.”
“You mean, they were dead?” Sang Hyun held his breath although practically he doesn’t need to breath. He’s dead now.
“No. Your parents and your sister were in the state of coma. Ji Hyun had to use a wheel chair and Li Xu’s blind.”

<3

“I don’t know that after we passed away we still be able to cry.” Sang Hyun muttered as he stared at the view in front of him.
“Yes, you could.” Leeteuk murmured beside him.
Sang Hyun let his tears fell down as he watched Ji Hyun sat at her wheel chair. Beside her, Li Xu sat on a wooden chair. They hold each other’s hand while Ji Hyun read him some funny stories from the book. Both of them giggled lightly but Sang Hyun knew better. Their laugh and giggle were nothing compared to the sadness aura that surrounding them.
Sang Hyun massaged his temple. “You know, the first time I realized that I fell in love with Ji Hyun I know it was a huge mistake. She was my step sister. My parents decided to adopt her when she was 12. They found her sleeping in front of the house. Her mother was dead and her father was a drunkard so she ran away. Pretty dramatic. I knew that my feeling to her started to be different when we both turned 14. I’m not sure but I just knew that I love her. But then, he started to date Li Xu. They met accidentally at the library and since then they were inseparable. Li Xu’s a senior in college, way too older for 16 years old Ji Hyun. Of course I opposed their relationship saying things that Li Xu could be a pervert or a sick pedophile. But the truth is, I opposed because I want Ji Hyun for myself only although it wasn’t normal to be in love with your sister.”
Sang Hyun stopped his story, realized that Leeteuk didn’t make any comment at all and he was surprised to find that the angel just kept looking at Ji Hyun and Li Xu with a blank stare.
“Excuse me?” Sang Hyun poked his arm.
“Oh my… You are shocking me.”
“Did you somehow listen to my story just now?”
“Yes but half way only, it was boring. I saw it happened you know.”
“Oh yeah of course you know every single thing that happened in my life.”
“So… you ready to make some changes here and there?” Leeteuk asked him.
“We can?”
“No, YOU can. Of course, after you finally allow your mind and heart to do so. But most importantly, the heart!” Leeteuk poked at his chest area right where his heart rested.

<3

“Li Xu, I’m scared.” Ji Hyun whispered on his soon-to-be-husband’s ear.
“Why?”
“I felt like someone’s watching me.”
“You mean a stalker?”
Ji Hyun nodded.
“It was just your feeling. Maybe you got nervous because we are getting married soon.” Li Xu said as he stumbled to help Ji Hyun put a diamond necklace on her pretty neck.
Ji Hyun sighed.
“Come on. They are waiting.”
As she followed Li Xu, Ji Hyun couldn’t help but wondering her mind to someone that has been bugging her lately. Sang Hyun…

<3

Again, Sang Hyun opened his eyes. Different scene. He was inside… his own house. He could hear some conversations in the upstairs and he just realized that he was alone. Where’s Leeteuk?
He proceeds to the upstairs and froze as he stared at both Ji Hyun and Li Xu kissing in front of Ji Hyun’s room.
Sang Hyun fake a cough but the couple didn’t even budge. Li Xu even started to roam his hands on Ji Hyun’s back.
Of course, he’s dead and invincible, he reminded himself.
“Hello, can you guys stop doing that disgusting thing? Or get a room, perhaps?” Sang Hyun blurted out although he knew it was useless.
But as if they heard, Ji Hyun suddenly made a slight push on Li Xu’s chest. “My parents and Sandara unnie are already on their way, we better go as well.”
Li Xu smiled and caressed Ji Hyun’s head. “Let’s go.”
DRIIINGGG! DRIIINGG!
“Omo, I wonder who’s calling.” Li Xu said and both of them run through the stairs to the phone which located on the kitchen downstairs.
Ji Hyun picked up the phone to the screaming of Sandara.
“YAAHH! WHERE ARE YOU GUYS?? EVERYONE’S ALREADY WAITING! DON’T TELL ME YOU GUYS ARE BUSY MAKING OUT. THERE ARE PLENTY OF TIMES TO DO THAT AFTER YOU GUYS MARRIED.”
Ji Hyun put the phone as far as possible but Sandara’s scream could be possibly heard through the whole house.
“No, we are about to go now, unnie. See you there…” Ji Hyun said as she put the phone back to its station. Both Ji Hyun and Li Xu burst into laugh.
“Your sister has sixth sense. She knows what we did just now.” Li Xu managed to put some words between his laugh. “Come on, the restaurant is not so near. We have to move.”
Restaurant? Sang Hyun was dazed for the whole time but when he heard that word he woke up. Could it be? Oh my God, it was the day. The day when that terrible accident happened to his family, to Ji Hyun and Li Xu too.
Quick, Sang Hyun. Think! Quick!
He remembered the situation when he arrived and… WAIT, is it possible?
He followed both Ji Hyun and Li Xu to the car which parked inside the garage. If let’s say something wrong happened to the car and the engine couldn’t be turned on, both of them would be saved. He will deal with his parents and Sandara noona later.
One minute passed and both Li Xu and Ji Hyun came out from the car.
“Oh my God, I couldn’t believe this car started to act. This is such a crucial time.” Li Xu practically screamed in anger. “Nothing’s wrong when I used it this afternoon.”
“We better call a taxi and…” Ji Hyun couldn’t finish her sentence when suddenly heavy rain poured.
Let’s make some storm, shall we? Sang Hyun grinned. This is going to be fun.
“Sorry miss, there was a sudden storm and we couldn’t send any taxi. There’s a major blackout too in the city.”
“I know. I know. Thank you.” Ji Hyun turned down the phone. She looked pissed off. Li Xu too. Both of them sat at the kitchen with some small candles flickering. The blackout apparently happened at the house too.
Okay, at least Ji Hyun’s saved now. Sang Hyun was thinking hard about saving his parents and his sister when suddenly Leeteuk appeared in front of him.
“Have fun?” he asked.
“I- oh well… Kind of.” Sang Hyun answered. “But I need to save my parents and my sister.”
“No need. They’re saved now.” Leeteuk smiled. “Finally, after such a long time you let your heart took control of everything.”
When Leeteuk mentioned the word ‘heart’ Sang Hyun automatically put his attention to Ji Hyun who’s currently pouted at Li Xu who looks equally pissed.
Today you might be angry but… Sang Hyun sighed, he wouldn’t be able to finish his sentence. I love you, Ji Hyun. I will always will. Li Xu, please take care her well or else I’m going to send some death angels for you.
Leeteuk giggled and Sang Hyun just realized that he has a cute pair of dimples on both of his cheeks.
“You can read minds, can’t you?”
“Very well.”

<3

Ji Hyun hugged herself tight suddenly as she shivered hard.
“What’s wrong baby?”
But Ji Hyun didn’t listen to Li Xu’s whine and ran to the living room.
“Baby, what’s wrong? Be careful, it’s dark.” Li Xu reminded her.
“What happen?”
“I feel like he’s… someone’s watching us.” Ji Hyun whispered.
“Are you alright?”
Even in the dark, Ji Hyun could see Li Xu’s beautiful brown orbs staring worried at her.
“I’m… I’m fine.” Ji Hyun sighed.

<3

“So, how was the journey just now?” Leeteuk asked as both of them walked in fluffy white floor again.
“I thought you can read minds.” Sang Hyun retorted. “Is it cloud?” His curious mind spoke as he poked at the white floor.
“You can say so. I guess it was a mind-blowing journey.”
Sang Hyun nodded.
“A heart-blowing journey too. What happen to my parents and my sister actually?”
“They came back home too because it would be a waste to have a dinner without the couple. Thank God, the accident didn’t happen because of the storm. The restaurant wasn’t that busy since lots of people turned down their reservation so the kitchen crews could pay more attention to what they did. No mistake. No gas leaking.”
“Umm… sorry for being rude and selfish but I can’t change my fate right? I couldn’t make myself alive again, am I right?”
“Sorry to say but you are right. We couldn’t change anything when it comes to death. My dear friends who called themselves as angels of death would be angry.”
Too bad, because I still want to see Ji Hyun’s happy face. I still want to tease Li Xu. I still want to mess around with Sandara noona and I still want to do something to make my parents proud of me.
Leeteuk just smiled while walking beside him. Obviously, he could make some comments about what Sang Hyun thought just now but he just kept himself quiet.
“As we walked in these fluffy things, I guess time already passed by so fast down there. Am I right?”
“Yes, in fact today’s already 1000 days after your death. They are having a ceremony.” Leeteuk explained.
“Can I have a look?”

<3

Hundreds of flowers, man in black suits, women in black dresses, added with some comfort words here and there.
This is just plain… weird, he thought as he saw both Li Xu and Ji Hyun put two bouquet of flowers on his grave. He could see his parents and sister too. They are doing well. It’s enough for him because he remembered Leeteuk’s word.
Of course, after you finally allow your mind and heart to do so. But most importantly, the heart!
He was about to spread his wings, yes, he got his own wings and they are so pure, so beautiful, so divine, so perfect- when he felt a pair of eyes staring intently at him. Sang Hyun’s eyes widened when he realized the eyes belonged to no other than Ji Hyun.
But after a few blinks, Ji Hyun turned around and rested her head on Li Xu’s shoulder.

<3

Ji Hyun must be dreaming. It was just a few seconds but she really saw… him. His eyes, how could she forget, his hair, still looked totally the same, and his… wings, so pure, so beautiful, so divine, and so perfect.
She blinked her eyes and as fast as he appeared, he disappeared. She turned around, smiled and put her head on Li Xu’s shoulder.

FIN

a/n:
1. writing this fic is making me tired inside out. figure out why.
2. this is actually a present for myself, just realized it's already March. 3rd anniversary for batwook :D
3. this fic supposed to be much longer but I don't want to write series D: I deleted lots of parts TT
4. For the first time in my life, I wrote about Li Xu instead of Ryeo Wook. I'm so proud. SJM took my heart I guess.

Fanfiction #9

2011-03-04T12:59:00.000+07:00

Title: A Day in Kindergarten Life [White Day Special]
Author: batgirl
Genre: fluff, friendship
Rating: G
Character: main kid!Jong Woon, kid!Hangeng and Ji Yeon, some minor characters such as kid!Ryeo Wook and kid!Hee Chul
Disclaimer: The boys belong to SM Ent. and Hangeng belongs to whoever he belongs to. Cutie Ji Yeon is mine :D

“Finally it’s done!!” Jong Woon screamed in excitement as he carefully took a piece of paper in his little table where he just spent his last two hours concentrating on it.
But I wonder whether she’s going to like it or not… he stared at his masterpiece with a big frown on his face.
“Aigoo son, why so excited?” suddenly his mother came to his room with a plate full of cookies and a glass of milk on each of her hands.
“Cookies!!” Jong Woon squealed, throwing all the crayons from his hands. He quickly grabbed one cookie from the plate by the time it landed on his table. While he was busying himself with the cookie his mother took a peek at the paper his son put carefully at the edge of the table.
“Mommy didn’t remember that Ddangkoma had some little hearts on its shell?” his mom asked.
“Mom! It’s supposed to be a secret.” Jong Woon quickly tried to snatch the paper from his mother’s hand.
His mother giggled.
“It’s that for the girl who gave you a cute microphone key chain?” his mother asked.
Jong Woon nodded.
“But you are not going to tell Heechul-hyung about this right? Please?” Jong Woon pleaded.
“Okay, it’s a secret between us.” His mother offered her pinky.
Jong Woon quickly intertwined his own pinky with his mother’s. “Even from Ryeo Wook and daddy too?”
“Yes, from Ryeo Wook and daddy too.” His mother reassured him.
“But anyway if mommy’s not mistaken there’s another boy who’s going to hand her another present too?”
“How did you know?” Jong Woon stared at his mother.
“Hangeng’s mom told me about the little competition you guys had in class.”
“Heechul-hyung said it’s not normal for kindergarten students to fight over a girl, he said it happens only to those teens at high school.”
“It wasn’t a fight. I’ll correct your hyung later, I think he watched too much drama. You guys all are friends at the kindergarten. Some more, Hangeng just moved from China. He must be really lonely. Be a nice kid and make friends with everyone, okay?”
“But what if that girl likes Hangeng’s present more than mine?”
“It doesn’t matter. The one that matters is your willingness to give the present for her.” His mother patted his head.
“I’ll see you at dinner time. I have to wake your little brother.” His mother left him in his room.

March 14, 2011 – White Day

“Happy White Day!” Jong Woon said as he handed his present to Ji Yeon.
“Thank you, Jong Woonnie~” she replied. “It’s beautiful. You drew it by yourself?”
Jong Woon nodded. He blushed a bit. He’s glad because Ji Yeon loves his present.
“Happy White Day too.” Ji Yeon said while tugging Jong Woon’s present carefully inside her transparent folder.
“Anyway, by chance is that your pet turtle Ddangkoma on the drawing you gave me?”
“Yes.” Jong Woon answered. “You want to meet him?”
“Can I?”
“Of course you can. Come to my house on Sunday. We can have brunch too.”
“Hey, what are you guys talking about?”
Jong Woon made a face. Why this Hangeng had to appear at such a crucial time.
“Jong Woon actually invited me to his house on Sunday.” Ji Yeon smiled at Hangeng. “We are going to play with his pet turtle.”
“Can I come too?” Hangeng asked.
Jong Woon almost said no since Hangeng will probably ruin his day with Ji Yeon but suddenly he remembered his mother’s words. It wouldn’t hurt to be nice.
“Sure. Don’t forget to bring your mother’s super famous Beijing Fried Rice.” Jong Woon grinned at him.
“Okay!” he smiled. “By the way, Ji Yeon, this is your White Day present. Happy White Day.”
Jong Woon recognized it as a coloring book. Yesterday night before he fell asleep he made his mind to ask Ji Yeon about her favorite present but actually to think about that, it doesn’t really matter anymore right now.
“You guys gave me both of my favorite presents.” Ji yeon said happily. “Thank you both of you.”
Jong Woon startled but he couldn’t be happier. Three of them laughed although there’s nothing funny.
“Let’s go! Our moms are waiting outside.” Ji Yeon grabbed both of Jong Woon’s and Hangeng’s hands and she started to run.
Once they are outside, three of them run to their respective mothers and to their surprise their mothers seemed to know each other.
“Mom, you know Jong Woonie’s mom?” Ji Yeon asked her mother. “And Hangeng’s mom too?”
“Yes, we got bored waiting for you guys so we chitchatted. Say hello to auntie Kim and Han.”
The three kids bowed to each other’s mothers.
“So cute.” Jong Woon’s mother patted their little heads.
“Auntie, is it alright if me and Hangeng come to your house on Sunday?” Ji Yeon asked her.
“Sure, I’d love to welcome such lovely kids to my house.”
“See you, auntie! Bye, Jong Woon.” Ji Yeon waved as three mothers said goodbye to each other too.
“See you!” Hangeng replied.
“See you guys! Ddangkoma’s waiting.” Jong Woon added with laugh.

a/n: Come up with this stupid idea for quite long time ago, actually I have bunch of kid!SJ stories in mind, involving one with snarky Kyuhyun of course :D

Fanfiction #8

2011-02-28T19:19:00.002+07:00

Title: How I Met Your Mother
Author: batgirl
Genre: romance
Rating: G
Character: Kim Ryeo Wook and a cute stranger
Disclaimer: The stranger could be anyone but the story is mine :) Kim Ryeo Wook belongs to SM Ent until he's free and we got married and everything.

“Oh my… Again?” Ryeo Wook pouted as he came out from the library.
He spent the last six hours crammed inside the library, studying for his final exam so he didn’t expect to be welcomed by such a heavy rain. Actually it’s already the third day he encountered with the rain but as stubborn as he could be, he had no umbrella with him. Never.
“Hey.”
He turned his attention to his right side. The sound came from a girl. Petite covered with a black coat and much to her craziness, a pair of frog slippers. He frowned at her for he didn’t know her at all, beside it was quite weird for her to wear such slippers in the public place like a library some more the weather was kind of too cold to wear slippers at night.
Unconsciously, Ryeo Wook poked at her upper left arm which covered by a thick black coat. It was kind of dark already outside the library, he just wanted to make sure he didn’t stumble over something weird which doesn’t belong to this world.
“No need to be scared. I’m a human as well.” She giggled.
“Oh well.” Ryeo Wook was embarrassed by his own action. “Hi.”
“I worked in the library and I’ve realized that you always run to the station without any umbrella.”
Ryeo Wook smiled. “I’m just too lazy to bring it around.”
“Come on.” She said. “You can tell me about what happened to your umbrella while we walked to the station.”
“Huh?” Ryeo Wook stared at her blankly.
This girl didn’t even ask his name and he didn’t know her name either but somehow the tone of her voice assured him that everything’s going to be alright.
“Let’s go.” She whined again, this time with a transparent umbrella above her head. Under the umbrella, Ryeo Wook could see her smiley face with silky black hair framing on it perfectly.
Slowly he stepped to her side and for a brief two seconds their eyes met. “Let’s go to the coffee shop beside the station first. I’ll treat you a cup of your favorite coffee.”
“Sounds good. Anyway, how did you know that I love coffee?” that girl asked.
“I’ll tell you once you let me know why you wear slippers in such cold spring night?” Ryeo Wook asked her back.
“Maybe I’ll answer once you give me the answer about why you don’t bring your umbrella while the rest of society knows that it will be raining almost every day when it comes to spring?”
“Nice.” Ryeo Wook grinned. Before he knew, both of them walked safely to the coffee shop beside the station under her transparent umbrella.
“Caramel macchiato?” Ryeo Wook guessed.
“Perfect.” She grinned.
“Guess my favorite drink, then?” he couldn’t believe the fact that he started to flirt with her.
“Such a green-tea latte person.” She replied.
Ryeo Wook laughed at her. She’s right. He’s so green-tea latte.

<3

“So, when can I see you again?” Ryeo Wook asked. He just found out that both of them live quite far away from each other. She’s using the north line while he’s taking the west one. And somehow, he’s so eager to see her again.
“Silly, I worked in library, remember? You can always see me there.” Her cheek somehow flushed because of the hot caramel macchiato she had before.
“Oh my… sorry for forgetting about that but I guess we’ll see each other quite often.”
She nodded. “Well, that’s my train coming. See you.”
“See you.” Ryeo Wook said as she hopped into the train.
They stared at each other through the glassy window for one minute before the train moved and soon disappeared from his sight. It took one more minute for Ryeo Wook to realize that until the very last second of their encounter, they didn’t know each other’s name and it took him another one minute to realize that she left her umbrella with him.
Ryeo Wook lifted the umbrella and a folded tissue from the coffee shop flew down from it. She scribbled some words there.
“You’ll need it more than me. See you :)”
Ryeo Wook held the transparent umbrella close to him. He actually kind of forgets the last time he held an umbrella. But sometimes, he guessed, an old habit could change. He put the folded tissue on his hoodie’s pocket and waited for his train to come with a big smile plastered on his face.

a/n: I used my own bad habit in this story, when I lived in Melbourne I really loved to wear slippers even on winter days LOL and both Caramel Macchiato and Green Tea Latte are my favorite drinks :D

Secret Craving

2011-02-17T18:29:00.008+07:00

I secretly love to take a look at some lovely houses/apartments. I couldn't hold myself from imagining my own self living in this all-white duplex (or triplex?) apartment with huge modern glass windows in the living room. Sweet. But why apartment? I don't know about the exact reason and I don't have any explanation either but I would really really love to stay in an apartment rather than a house. Maybe because I carried this habit during my university life?

Recently when I browsed the internet I've found the best apartment I've ever landed my eyes on.

Look at that!! The loveliest apartment ever!
Maybe I should take the interior design as my major? LOL but no way, I suck really bad at drawing.
The apartment used to be a cinema. CINEMA! Can you imagine? and it costs US$ 3,216,400. Great, totally great. Just wished and prayed that I'm going to make tons of money :D

Although I preferred apartment than houses I was kind of excited and shouted 'WOW' when I found this.

The green-roof house with a transparent swimming pool. Double sweet. But I think everyone will kind of having a hard time taking care the whole house. Anyway, it's located in Sentosa Island, Singapore. Wow, I never knew this kind of house existed in Singapore, when I read and take a look at the picture, I thought it was somewhere really far.

Anyway, enough with my house-kink :D See you in the next post ^^

source: here

Hello and Goodbye

2011-01-01T00:38:00.005+07:00

Part 1. Goodbye.

First of all, Happy New Year. Time flies, like I always said. It feels like it was only yesterday when I wished everyone a blast for 2010 and now, I have to repeat it all over again. Last year was kind of... normal? I don't know. I work. I do kpop. I write. I'm not really sure, actually. Compared to the past few years, indeed 2010 was such a normal year. No chaotic and crazy stuffs happened. Shit happens but I still managed to get through it well. About the resolution, I achieved them quite well.

I got my first job and I dropped the bomb by saying goodbye today. Yes, I'm officially unemployed starting from today. Daddy's colleague offered me another job at the bank so I've decided to quit early. I've finished the one whole year contract and I'm not gonna do another one, the contract was kind of out from my perception and my principle as well.

I still haven't found what I'm looking for, this is probably going to be such a mystery for me. When it comes to wants, I'm such a random person. Today I probably want this and next month I would probably already ditched that stuff from my wish list and I've already had another stuff that I want.

I still love you kpop. Thanks for accompanying me through the whole year, it was fun and I almost this close to achieve my kpop dream. I'm going to find the answer at the end of this month. I can't wait :)

A better person? I guess I am. I got less complain XD but I still talk a lot at church D:

I make lots and lots of friends. I will always remember you guys and I will always cherish our friendship, nothing beats our teamwork, we went through ups and downs together for the whole year. I wished you guys a better year in 2011.

Find a true love. I think I will make this one as this year's resolution as well.

I've learned Mandarin but it was such a pain in the ass compared to English. I couldn't differentiate the tones and I went nuts over the kanji. But it was fun LOL at least I know how to great the Chinese if I meet them later on.

Anger management. Done. But sometimes I slipped of. Gotta practice more.

I've written quite a lot of stuff this year mostly fanfictions. I've got this major project, it's 3 stories which are going to be related to each other.

So what do you think?

Part 2. Hello.

Hmm... I'm going to be 22 this year, should I make 22 resolutions? LOL

1. create a better harmony in my life in order to synchronize my relationship with God and also with each and every human in this world.
2. save more money, I think I should start to think about the word invest.
3. get a brand new job
4. as always, be a better person
5. shed some pounds
6. read more books, kpop life stealing my book-worm soul
7. finish my stories/write more
8. not being too obsessive with my fandom life
9. looking for the other half
10. TBA

No worries. No pressure. But I promise myself to work as hard as I could to achieve my dreams :) Once again, Happy New Year. Bless and fortune for 2011. Let's rock this year!~

Fanfiction #7

2010-12-30T21:00:00.002+07:00

Title: Merry Christmas, Dong Woon
Author: batgirl
Genre: Super MBC romance
Rating: G
Character: Son Dong Woon & Kim Ji Ae + some minor appearance
Disclaimer: I want Son Dong Woon for Christmas but too bad Cube Ent. had already claimed him, maybe next year XD

24 December 2010 19:24 PM

Kim Ji Ae stole a glance at the clock and then she let out a sigh. It’s Christmas Eve and she was stuck inside this shop since this early morning.

24 December 2010 19:37 PM

Son Dong Woon twisted the door knob only to be welcomed by an eerie darkness in front of him. He pouted. Switching the light on, he sighed.

24 December 2010, 19:55 PM

“Unnie… Is it alright if I leave you alone?” Mi Young asked while she put another gift which she just wrapped beautifully on the huge box labeled with ‘NEW YEAR’.
Ji Ae nodded. “It’s fine. It’s already 8, your boyfriend should be waiting for you already to spend the Christmas Eve together.”
“How about you and Dong Woon oppa?”
“Actually few days ago we had an argument, a silly one. But we didn’t talk much to each other since that day.”
“Unnie, that’s sad. But as usual, I’m pretty sure that you guys will make it up.” Mi Young said in optimistic tone.
“I hope so.” Ji Ae muttered.

24 December 2010, 20:21

Dong Woon turned on the TV, the heater, the CD player and the laptop all together. Anything to keep him busy. Actually, anything to keep his mind busy. He starred at the laptop while listening to some weird Christmas songs on CD player getting mixed up with another song played on the TV.
“Aiisshhh…” He curled himself under a soft blanket belongs to his girlfriend, Ji Ae. He’s missing her a lot. She didn’t show up in his apartment like usual since their last argument. They can’t help it. They have a job which required them to work like there’s no tomorrow. Ji Ae owns a gift shop which runs pretty well, takes almost 24 hours work especially during Christmas/New Year season. While, he himself works in a well-known orchestra group as a piano player and his schedule is always packed. Actually, he just finished one performance today.

24 December 2010, 20:33

Ji Ae checked her phone.
No missed call.
No message.
She threw another gift to the box and stretched her body. Her back hurt since she just practically didn’t move from her position since lunch. Another two gifts and she will be free.
Aisshh, what’s that guy doing now?

24 December 2010, 21:04

Dong Woon randomly scrolled the laptop’s mouse when he found a file called ‘What I Want for Christmas’.
5. a Christmas tree (doesn’t have to be huge)
4. Forever Friends teddy bear dressed in Santa outfit
3. Egg Nog
2. mini Bûche de Noël
1. Never mind, I only want Son Dong Woon for Christmas :)

24 December 2010, 21:37

The snow started to fall when Ji Ae wrapped herself with a coat and a huge scarf. Not to forget her gloves, hat and earmuffs.
“Omo… Can I go home with this weather?” Ji Ae asked herself in desperation. She stared at the glassy window in front of her store. It looks really cold outside. She checked her phone and again, there was no sign of contact from him.
Maybe, somehow Dong Woon had already found someone to spend Christmas with or he probably would go to some clubs with his friends, Ji Ae thought sadly as she tightens her scarf. She turned the lights off and did some final checking through the whole store before she stepped to the coldness outside. And damn, it’s really cold outside.

24 December 2010, 21:56

“Damn!” Dong Woon cursed under his breath.
The sign on the door said that the store was already closed.
Was I too late? He thought miserably.

24 December 2010, 22:29

Ji Ae sipped the apple cider she just bought at the store nearby the bus station. Instead of waiting for the bus, she decided to walk in this cold weather. She was not alone. Lots of people, despite of the agonizing weather, kept walking slowly. Mostly, side by side with their other half.
Will my wish be granted? She thought miserably.

24 December 2010, 23:17

“Ji Ae-ah, where are you?” Dong Woon whispered in panic tone as he tried to dial her number once again. Ji Ae rarely turned her phone off, maybe there’s some problem with the network because of the snow, Dong Woon prayed silently.

24 December 2010, 23:43

Ji Ae is officially crying now. She didn’t experience her Christmas Eve, Dong Woon is nowhere to be found and he didn’t even try to find her. Another few minutes and this is going to be the most horrible Christmas ever, she thought as she tried to hold her sob.

24 December 2010, 23:57

“You’d better watch out… You’d better not cry… You’d better not pout… I’m telling you why.” Ji Ae squint her eyes when she spotted something bright inside her apartment, welcoming her right in front of the door.
“Dong Woon-ah… why?” Ji Ae just stared blankly at the sight of Dong Woon who’s currently holding a small size Christmas tree and a cute Forever Friends teddy bear in santa outfit.
“Merry Christmas.” Dong Woon said while handing her the teddy bear. “And… I’m sorry. The last argument was kind of unacceptable, so silly and everything.”
Ji Ae hugged the teddy bear and wiped her tears.
“Omo… You are crying? I’m really sorry, tried to call you few times but always get into your voice mail.” Dong Woon said as he hugged Ji Ae into his embrace.
“How did you know about my wishes?” Ji Ae asked.
“Last minute order from Santa.” Dong Woon said while motioning her to the kitchen area. “There you go, your egg nog and mini Bûche de Noël. Actually I found a file on my laptop, you probably wrote that few weeks ago. Do you remember now?”
“Oh my… I didn’t expect you to find that file. Actually my sister asked me on msn when I was online at your home few weeks ago, she dared me to write my wishes for Christmas in one minute, that’s all I could think about at that time. I guess I forgot to delete the file.” Ji Ae explained.
“But that file save me.” Dong Woon laughed. “And I was kind of surprised when I read the last one. To be honest, it was exactly the same as mine. Merry Christmas, Ji Ae.” He said while caressing Ji Ae’s hair.
“Merry Christmas too, Dong Woon.”

25 December 2010, 00:27

FIN

a/n: whenever I wrote a lovey dovey love story it always comes out like this = LAME LAME LAME. Anyway managed to write all this lameness for few hours only, great way to spend Christmas at home.

All I Want for Christmas is...

2010-12-25T23:49:00.002+07:00

Merry Christmas, people! :)

Movie Freak

2010-12-23T20:53:00.003+07:00

I'm a movie freak and I always be. When I was in college days, I could watch 2-3 movies in one week or 2 movies straight in one night. Midnight show is my favorite one despite of the fact that my mom hate to hear that i purposely went out at night to watch movies.
My movie addiction was kind of lessen when I went to Melbourne because the ticket's price wasn't as cheap as the one in Malaysia. It gets worse when I came back to Indonesia. I was so outdated and I probably am right now.

But for the past few weeks, my movie's heart came back and believe me it wasn't that good. i watched about 6 movies, each for every single week. Usually since I came back here, I watched only 1 movie per month. I guess I'm hungry :D

Started with Resident Evil 4: After Life, Salt, Megamind, Harry Potter 7A, Narnia, and Tron Legacy.
Just realized that most of the movies I've been watched were kind of those with action/sci-fi/fantasy stuffs. Yeah, not in the mood to watch lovey-dovey drama, some more I always think that watching that kind of movie at the cinema was just a waste of money. I prefer to watch those teary scenes at home, peeps XD
Actually I had a plan to make a review for each movie but I guess I'm late already since some of the movies were kind of outdated D:

Anyway, my favorite should be Harry Potter 7A since it was similar to my imagination and expectation, the idea about splitting the movie into two parts was kind of genius, they could make more scenes from the book, not like those previous HP movies TT and my least favorite was Narnia, I expect more from this movie but it didn't come out pretty well in my opinion. I prefer the previous one tho', The Prince Caspian.

SK-II

2010-12-20T22:56:00.008+07:00

People who know me will probably frowned at the title because I rarely or almost never talked about this beauty shit stuffs, but yes you read it right, SK-II. The famous skin care product which is slightly over-priced in my opinion (others too) but has this addictive power that makes me (and others too) saved money like crazy in order to use this miracle product.

My first encounter with this product started when I browsed the internet about blackheads. Yeah, I had a severe blackheads problem that makes me kind of disgusted with my own face especially nose area. People always envy and get jealous with my skin because I don't have pimples (not even single one except during my period), I don't have any spots, my face isn't oily or dry or anything. I don't have any problems with my face except that my pores are way too big compared to others which is the ultimate reason for those severe blackheads. So, I read about this product and found out that some people got their problems solved, they even said that their skins getting so much improvement after using this product.

So when daddy had a trip to Singapore, I asked him to buy the Facial Treatment Essence which is more recognized by the term of 'miracle water' but in the end daddy came home with the whole set of trial set because he said the SPG kept saying that it will be more beneficial rather than buying the essence alone (of course all the SPGs will always say that kind of stuff but big thanks dad XD). The trial set had one facial treatment cleansing gel, facial treatment clear lotion, facial treatment essence (daddy bought the biggest one), and whitening source derm-revival program which is consists of one mask and four round-shaped films which will be used under the mask and will melt later on after few minutes of usage. Oh yeah, not to be forgotten, they also gave me one cute little make-up bag :)

I tried the facial treatment clear lotion first together with the miracle water, after one week of usage I didn't find any change on my face, my blackheads are still on. So being a desperate girl, I decided to use the mask and HOLY FATHER IN HEAVEN, the blackheads started to reduce. I put the 2 round-shaped films on my nose and the other 2 under my eyes, because I always have eyebags no matter how many hours I sleep. One of my happiest day XD although my eyebags are still there till this very moment D:

What a lucky experience and although I only used it once (the mask) because they don't sell SK-II in my hometown, my blackheads didn't dare to reappear anymore. I got some but after I used my weekly Face Shop mask (much cheaper) they disappeared again. My nose is much much much smoother now :DD

Few days ago, I started to use the other product, the facial treatment cleansing gel. I wasn't really interested with this product since it was like a make-up remover in my opinion and I'm already comfortable with my Maybelline remover. But I was thinking, why not? Rather than wasted the product which is a big NO. But the best thing is, after using this cleansing gel (I'm kind of having paranoia so I still used my old remover before applying the cleansing gel), my nose is getting better and better, not just my nose but my whole face as well. It became smoother (okay call me a sick bitch because my face was already smooth before I used the whole product) but I couldn't resist myself, it was just way too smooth right now XDD

But I don't think I'm going to be a loyal SK-II customers because the price was kind of over my budget. Will definitely continuing the essence and clear lotion but not the others. I have to rob a bank if I want to use the whole set.

PS: But I still didn't get the whole radiant and glowing skin lots of SK-II users talking about, but you know different people got different effects if you talk about skin-care products. But so far I'm so happy and satisfied with this product.
Thank you, SK-II :)

For more information, click here.

As Cheesy As It Sounds

2010-12-01T22:57:00.001+07:00

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer :)

(Far East Movement ft Ryan Tedder - Rocketeer)

Fanfiction (Project) #6

2010-11-14T22:35:00.001+07:00

Yang Yo Seob and Kim Ji Hyun are both strangers to each other. They live in different suburbs. They went to different school with different majors. They have different hobbies and interests. They didn’t share anything in common. Any single thing. Just like North and South poles, they are separated so far away. North and South poles will never meet each other or the earth will be completely dissolved. They just there, making the shape of the earth always a perfect circle.

Little did they know, their encounter had created an invisible red string that attached to their souls. Soon the north and south poles will cross more lines, will the earth shattered?

NB: looongg way to go, just started this story and wrote like 3000 words introduction part. Damn, i wished i had this ability when i was still struggled a lot with university life (read: assignments). I should probably take literature next :D

Random Thoughts

2010-10-31T16:49:00.005+07:00

we are getting older and more mature but i guess our mind stay young
it's good
i wanna be forever 18
and i wished we were :)

sunny turns cloudy Sunday where i sit down on a chair
looking at an abandoned tree outside my window
the wind blew smoothly
the sky reminds me a lot to Melbourne on winter days
I miss you, M and another M
where we spent few years together
can I fly back to those times?
and I wished I could

PS: deep condolences for those who were affected by some natural disasters in my beloved country, Indonesia. always remember to #prayforIndonesia, together we can get through this.
PPS: happy Halloween, peeps! Trick or treat?

Fanfiction (Project) #5

2010-10-04T00:00:00.004+07:00

ex·cerpt/ikˈsərpt/

Verb: Take (a short extract) from a text.

“Noona!”

I opened my eyes slightly.

“Noona!”

I knew that annoying voice. I heard it every day.

“NOONAAA!”

Someone opened my bedroom door with a loud bang.

“Noona, we have an emergency situation here.”

“What the hell, Jonghun.”

I was fully awake now. Thanks to him.

“It’s about Seunghyun.”

“What’s with him?”

“We all have this plan to practice a new song since today is Saturday but he said he can’t make it.”

“What’s the connection behind all of these with me?”

“He’s going for a date. With a girl.”

I frowned at my brother.

“That’s not a proper reason to wake me up at this early hour on Saturday.”

“But… I thought you are the one who’s dating with him.” Jonghun said.

“No, we are just friends. Anyway, this is not an emergency situation except he’s out there dating a guy instead of a girl.”

“Eww…”

“So, goodbye and get out from my room.”

“But, we are going to stalk him. You should come with us.”

“Why should I?”

“I know that both of you are going through a stage of knowing-each-other thingy. Don’t you feel curious?”

Damn my brother. I do feel curious. A bit.

***

Alright, remind me why on earth I’m doing this.

At the moment, four of us were hiding ourselves behind some huge trees at the central park while Seunghyun and ‘the girl’ were eating their lunch box.

“Where’s Jaejin?” I asked because I just remembered that usually there are 6 of us all together.

“He’s… er… not feeling really well, noona.” Minhwan said.

He’s just being a smart ass and pretended to be sick so he doesn’t need to join this weird stalking mission.

“Noona, please don’t be so angry and jealous.” Jonghun said.

“No, I’m obviously not.”

“But, you grabbed my t-shirt like you are going to kill me in any second.”

“Ups, sorry.”

I didn’t realize it. Maybe it’s just because of the heat.

“Hey, they just moved.” Hongki said with a loud shriek.

Uh-oh, bad timing.

“F*ck you, we could get ourselves caught.” I hissed at him.

“Sorry noona but we better move as well.”

“Do you guys have any clue about this girl he’s dating?”

“He never talked about it. As far as I know he likes you.” Jonghun answered.

“Nonsense.” I mumbled as I grabbed the binoculars from his hand.

***

As the sky was getting darker, this stalking mission is getting weirder. We got some risky moments where Seunghyun could probably felt a really bad aura from us whom stalking his every moves. And damn the girl with him, she didn’t do anything suspicious and ‘till this very second I didn’t even get a single chance to see her face yet. From what I’ve seen, Seunghyun and that girl acted a little awkward to each other. Maybe they do really like each other but they didn’t do anything special, they just held each other hands sometimes and exchanging some whispers as if they knew if they spoke loudly, we, the bad stalkers could hear them. The girl herself was acting really strange like most of the time she almost stumbled in her kitten heels and she looks really uncomfortable with herself although I could tell that she was probably just having a nervous attack.

“Boys, I think I’m going home.” I told my brother and his friends whom still looked really fresh. and all energetic “I’m tired and don’t you guys feel tired too? The weather is just too hot today. I’m drained.”

“No, you are not drained. You are jealous.”

“Absolutely not. Why should I?”

“You look really anxious.”

“No. I’m…”

I couldn’t continue my sentence when I heard a loud shriek from our main target for the whole day. I watched through the binoculars and found out that the girl is falling on the ground. It seems like something on her shoes was finally getting on her.

“Help her, morons.” I poked at my brother.

To my surprise, my brother, Hongki and Minhwan looked really nervous.

“If you guys started being such a chicken then I’m going to help her by myself.”

“Oh my God, please don’t. We don’t want…”

Hongki hasn’t finished his words yet when my brother and Minhwan tackled him and trying to shut him up.

Something started to smell really really fishy.

So I run towards Seunghyun and ‘the girl’ with the boys running behind me as well. When I approached him, Seunghyun looked really panicked and he started to cover his arm around ‘the girl’. Oh so sweet of him. Oh my, what do I have in my mind at such a crucial time?

“I think your girlfriend is injured.” I blurted out.

“Noona, she’s not my girlfriend.” He told me.

“Huh?”

‘The girl’ finally, finally, looked up and showed her face to me. I screamed.

***

“Noona… I’m really sorry.” Seunghyun sat beside me, holding a cup of green tea ice cream.

“Noona…” he nudged my arm.

“Don’t apologize to me. Your little friend deserved it more, she’s injured now.”

“But… he’s not even angry. It’s April’s Fool afterall.”

I stucked out my tongue and grabbed the green tea ice cream from his hand.

It’s my stupidity because I didn’t realize that today is April’s Fool day. Time for some stupid jokes. Unfortunately, the joke turns out to be a plan to set Jaejin as Seunghyun’s girlfriend and make me stalked them all day long. Yes, goddamn Jaejin. For his punishment, he’s injured now and I’ve already shouted and yelled hard enough to my brother, Hongki and Minhwan. But as usual, they don’t take it seriously and now they are already sparing themselves in the TV room, playing Guitar Hero like some crazy moron. While me and Seunghyun sat at the patio over the back garden at the moment.

“What do you want as your punishment?” I asked him.

He pouted.

I giggled.

“Why? What’s so funny?” He asked me.

“I remember your face when I told you that Jaejin as your girlfriend is injured and you look really scared. Do I really look that scary?”

“Umm… It’s just…”

I giggled again.

“Seunghyun, don’t tell anyone but apology accepted.” I said quickly.

“You are not going to yell and shout at me?”

“I’ve already gone mad like crazy for half an hour, I’m tired.”

We both laughed.

“But… I’m really sorry.” He mumbled.

Oh God, he could be such a cutie. Oh no, what am I thinking?

“That’s the main point. You apologized to me instead of being such a jerk like those boys inside.”

“So, apology accepted?”

I nodded.

“Thanks for the green…”

For one second, I thought I’m going to faint. Seunghyun’s thin lips just brushed past my right cheek. He’s blushing madly and I hope I’m not.

“You can slap me if you feel like it.”

“I guess I’m too tired to do that.”

Suddenly, Seunghyun rested his head on my shoulder. The air becomes more suffocating with the humid weather of spring around both of us.

“Noona, if let’s say I was really had a date with a real girl just now. What do you think?”

He’s testing me.

“You won’t be here, sitting this close to me.”

“Noona, I like you.”

“Seunghyun, everytime you told me that 3 words, I will feel really stupid because I never be able to find a good feedback.”

“I don’t ask for any feedback, I just like the way those words slipped from my mouth especially when you are right beside me.”

“Okay, romeo.”

hmm, I have a bigger plan for this. looks happy and all lovey-dovey and comical but you know me, it could be a super tense angsty and full of tragedy coming.

Dumb and Dumber

2010-08-28T23:12:00.003+07:00

[me staring at the TV and watch Brad Pitt walking down the street]
me: I know this movie, it's Seven Eleven
brother: huh?
me: eh?
me: ZOMG, i mean Ocean's Eleven
brother: ROFL
me: ups, actually it's Ocean's Thirteen

LOL

Ravage

2010-08-19T21:11:00.004+07:00

Don't say I didn't care
I just don't want you guys to repeat the same mistake
over and over again

Don't say I couldn't tolerate
I just don't want you guys being so stupid all the time
I'm sick of it already

See and learn this time.

Fanfiction #4

2010-08-18T21:52:00.008+07:00

Title: You and I Will Never Die
Author: batgirl
Genre: Romantic/Angst
Rating: PG-15
Character: OC and Key/Ki Bum and some other minor characters
Disclaimer: I wanna buy Key and make him mine but he's such an expensive bitch :D

“We’re home!” I yelled loudly and my voice echoed through the whole house.
Clearly there was no one, no sign of existence nor life.
“Whatever, they are probably busy. Heard that Myungsoo has this important business to settle, sure he’ll bring some people out and Seungho has a mission to complete today together with Kevin. The others are probably wondering around the city. I’m tired, we are tired, let’s have some rest.”
I stared at him. He threw his black leather jacket to the floor and walked towards the stairs.
“What are you waiting for?”
I shrugged my shoulders and follow him upstairs.

***

“Boss is calling for us.” He said calmly when I walked out from the huge bathroom, soaked from head to toe and tightly wrapped with a warm towel.
He was laying in my bed, our bed, a ciggarette stucked between his thin lips.
“Turn your head and please don’t burn my pillow again this time.”
“We practically live together in this room for like.. forever and you are still being so sensitive about me seeing the bare side of you.” He said while laughing at the same time but he did turn his head away.

***

We met, no, we were discovered by the boss few years back. We didn’t really remember the date or what day it was. We were not in any position to remember anything. I was just an orphanage, I heard that my parents threw me away at the random street after I was born. He experienced the same thing.
We didn’t know each other at first, we lived in the opposite side of this town, like North to South or East to West. The boss stopped me on my way to the usual spot where I did my usual job at the red district of Seoul. I sort of think that the boss was probably the God people talked about. He looked so divine.
The boss brought me to a very huge house with bodyguards here and there. There were lots of people there but some of them were missing as time goes by. I met him there. Boss asked me to call him Key but he told me that his real name is actually Ki Bum.

***

“Mmm... I miss both of you.”
We are currently sit in a very spacious room which belongs to the boss. He himself sit on a huge expensive chair while me and Key sit on the sofa. We both directly lit the ciggarettes the boss provided on the table.
The boss sipped his martini. This is gonna be a long night.

***

“What do you want me to do?” I asked him after the boss fed us with so many foods, probably the most delicious food we ever had in our life.
I lived for so long in the streets, I’ve learned that people will do these kind of nice stuffs just because they want something in return.
“Work for me. Both of you.”
“As what?” Key asked with a tone full of awareness.
“My precious team of assassin.”

***

The boss kept babbling about his recent business and his friends, his enemies and his lover. He always like this.
Both of us just smile and stare at each other eyes, enjoying the liquor and ciggarettes.
“...she’s very demanded sometimes. I wonder what should I do this time. Oh yeah, anyway i want both of you to do this important mission.”
I stared at the plain white ceiling while Key sip his liquor as if something didn’t happen. We both actually wait in anticipation.
“This mission is very hard, I know what you both are capable to but unlike your old missions, this one is special. I will send both of you, just both of you. A very narrow chance to escape, lots of obstacles, a big chance to get killed.”
“Is this one of your way to get rid of us?” Key asked.
Three of us burst into laugh but it stopped after a good 3 seconds.
“So, what’s the target?”
“A blueprint. A simple blueprint inside a mini USB. Once you’ve found it, insert it to a hardware that the IT staffs will give to you, I will have a copy of it at that very second and the real blueprint will be vanished. Let me remind you that this bunch of scumbag also own a group of assasin. So this is a very tight mission to complete. The others will cover you up but with your abilities I trust both of you to do the main mission.”
“When?” I asked as I blow a ring of smoke.
“The day after tomorrow.”

***

I’ve heard that word before. I just couldn’t find a perfect way to explain it. Assassin...

***

That night, the night before the big day, we both sprawled on the bed. The TV is on but we turned the volume so down. Instead of that we concentrated ourselves on the song from the Apple speakers.
“What if today is our last day on earth?” I wonder out loud.
“Why didn’t you say it earlier? We could have fun and pretend that today is our last day in this world.”
I pouted.
“Have you check all the equipments?”
I nodded.
“I’m going to bring my favorite gun, the one that I use to kill for the first time, it’s a charm.”
“What a psycho.” Key poked his tongue out.
“We are all psycho.”
“Anyway your question makes me wonder, if we are going to die tomorrow and let’s say God gives us a chance to live again, what would you want to be in your next life?” Key proposed me a question.
“Mmm... A dolphin?” I answered without thinking.
“Only people with too much sins who’s going to be born again as animals.”
“I’m so so so sooo sinful, silly. My hands are covered with blood.”
“I didn’t see any blood.” Key checked my right hand and suddenly he kissed my palm.
“I’m going to be whatever you want to be. If you want to be a dolphin then I want to be a dolphin as well. You know, I never had a friend before I met you. Everyone was acting like a bitch before I knew you and the boss and the rest of our friends here. You are my very first friend.”
“You are so cheesy.” I slapped his head with my other hand playfully. “What if God really hates us and send us to hell directly? You still want to follow me?”
“I will hold your hand even when we are in hell. You know what, actually we’ve been through hell a lot and yet, we are still here, holding hands.”

***

TWO YOUNGSTERS FOUND DEAD ON AN ISOLATED FACTORY

Seoul Times, Seoul – Two youngsters have been found dead, Monday (08/16) morning inside an isolated factory at the rural side of Seoul. Two of them had been shot to death at the chest. These two bodies had been found by Youngwoon, a homeless guy who lived around that area when he randomly enter this isolated factory.
A team of investigator found out that there was no shotgun at the factory and clearly there was no any evidence of fights. The team also currently working to find out who are these two youngsters since none of them had any identity card. The investigators believed that these two youngsters are still underage and probably they are just a victim of some mafia activity...

***

Sometime in the future...

“Guys, today please welcome our newest employee. She will work as one of the graphic designers to improve our brand new product.”
The manager was not happy, definitely, because only some of them were paying their attention to his words. The whole office itself has been some kind of huge storage room with piles of works scattered everywhere. Their team is going to represent a brand new product and the whole team’s destiny was kind of depended on it and their due date is getting really really close.
“YA! Ki Bum-ah, at least you should listen to me. She’s going to be one of your team mate!” the manager yelled angrily over a guy with black shiny hair who’s currently busy with a huge paper in front of him.
Ki Bum growled and he lift his head from his work he’s been working on since this morning.
Their eyes met and something sparks.
I’m going to be whatever you want to be...

THE END

PS: sorry for some grammatical error here and there D:

Fanfiction #3

2010-08-10T21:10:00.002+07:00

Title: Forget The Things We Swore We Meant
Author: batgirl
Genre: Romantic/Angst
Rating: G
Character: Hyun Ji and SungJong
Disclaimer: I wished I own SungJong *sigh* and Hyun Ji is a fictional character made by me.

I stopped the car and turned off the engine in the nearby car park, from far away I’ve already spotted him. He didn’t change at all. It’s still... him. I slowly get out from the car although my heart beat does the opposite way. As expected I was welcomed by the hot blazing sun, it’s summer right now and the heat is on its highest.
With an umbrella open and my sunnies, I walked towards the white yellowish sand. He was standing there clapping excitedly when his dog, a little Golden Retriever catched the tennis ball he threw earlier.
“Yeah! You are better now!” He patted his dog and embrace it on a big hug. Both their bodies were wet, covered with salty water from the sea.
He hasn’t realize my existence yet until I came quite close and his little dog started to bark loudly, probably seeing me as an intruder to its master.
He frowned and put his right palm above his eyes to cover them from the sunlight in order to see me more clearly.
“Miss, can I help you? Are you lost?” He asked politely while trying to stand and carrying his dog to his embrace.
He gets taller probably by 4-5 inches, he’s much more taller than me now. Not that he already has. It’s been a year yet I feel it was just a few days ago since the last time I saw him.
Tears are threatening to fall but I tried my best to ignore it. I took my sunnies off and he’s still standing there. Dumbfounded.
“SungJong?”
“Umm, sorry but do I know you? And yes, I’m SungJong.” He answered. “Sorry but last year I was involved in a terrible accident and I lost some of my memories ever since, I couldn’t recall few of them until this moment. You are probably one of them. Is it?”
“Lots of people came to me and I didn’t know who they were until they told me or sometimes me and my mom just looked through the old pictures to help me. At first it was really bad, I couldn’t even remember who I am, my mom, my dad and everything but as time goes by I started to collect my memories back, one by one. But I never saw you before, really, are we somehow related? Miss?”
I was totally lost in his words. He gets taller and everything but he’s still SungJong. He still talk like a child, he still smile and act like a child too. Like SungJong whom I kept in my memory. His skin is still pale, his hair is still straight jet black with a little fluff here and there.

***

It was the convocation day, the day when we all were finally free from high school life and could be whoever we wanted to. We were both 18 and like those stupid days we had together we decided to spend that day to the fullest. I really wished we had some common sense left before we decided to rent a car and drive across to the side of the city.
It happened so fast. So fast that I didn’t do anything at all. I couldn’t. A group of drunk people decided to choose the same day with us to drive in the same way at the very same moment. I was driving in a very high speed that time and you just sit there calmly, you trusted your life to me and I ruined it.
There were so many loud voices, probably an explosion or a big giant crash or your scream or it was probably mine. Those drunk people were saved, I was saved but how about you? Why life has to be so unfair?
You were rushed to the hospital and I still remember clearly when your mom slapped me right on my face. I would probably did the same thing if I were her. I screwed her son’s life on his graduation day.

***

I managed to pull a smile on my face.
“No, we didn’t know each other. I was just a stranger who coincidentally passed by and you look really similar to my cousin. His name is SungJong too.” I lied.
He pouted, probably feel a bit disappointed for thinking that we knew each other before. We did, actually. You just... forget.
“I really thought we’ve met before this.” He said.
“So, tell me about this accident you had, if you don’t mind. Because I’m on this tiring journey to the countryside and I feel so bored driving all alone.”
“Mom told me that I was on this taxi when some drunk people suddenly hit on.”
A taxi, huh?
“Sorry about that, I shouldn’t ask you about this on the first place. It must be very hurt for you.”
He shrugged his shoulder. “I don’t really care about it right now.”
“Anyway, do you live around here?” I asked. Just an expression of courtesy because I know he lives around here, he always comes to this beach almost on daily basis during summer together with his dog.
“Yes, I live nearby.”
I saw his face as he threw the tennis ball to another side of the beach and his dog started to chase after it. Maybe... Just maybe, it was the best decision to let him unaware of the real matter. Or is it because I was too afraid, too coward to let him know that the one who caused all his trouble was his former best friend?
“Hey SungJong, I gotta go.” I told him. “Nice to meet you, I’m Hyun Ji.”
“Oh, okay. See you somewhere. Next time.”
I was on my way to the car when he shouted, “Hey, are you really a stranger? I... I have this feeling that I’ve known you before.”
“Maybe.” I answered him without looking back, I was scared that I probably going to end up crying so hard.
I’m sorry, SungJong. I’m really sorry.

PS: Okay, it turned out to be so horrible *imo* i'm not really satisfied with this one and fyi i was about to make a happy lovey-dovey story at first, why it had to be angsty at the end?

Worse

2010-08-07T23:13:00.005+07:00

For the past few days my mood has been going all the way down and I think I need an anger management book very soon. So many dumb people with their dumb brain and mind and act and everything. It's okay for being so stupid but at least you should try to listen to others too, it's for your own sake anyway. At first I was being so dedicated but as I watch the progress slowly I can't put my mind and energy on those useless stuffs anymore. Do your own thing. I wouldn't be able to help anymore in the future.

하루 온종일 돌아오는 건 잔소리
오늘도 책상 앞에선 뭘한거니 why why

툭 털어 rhythm에 맡기고 oh
펼쳐질 내일에 기대로 oh
[SHINee - A-Yo]

State of Trance

2010-08-02T20:49:00.004+07:00

Over the cold cloudy day
we repeat the stories
and when the sun rises again
we could always close our eyes
and pretend things didn't happen

Clap Clap Mad Man

2010-07-26T23:54:00.005+07:00

My parents offered me a chance to go back to university life, probably next year. Should I take it? I kinda miss it (alright, not the assignment and tests and exam tho' they give us thrills sometimes), those times when we were so carefree and couldn't really care about tomorrow's life (again, if there's no exam on the next day), times when we just being.. us.
But I enjoyed my current life, being a worker who earn my own money. No one has any right to get angry at me when I spent too much on something, not like last time when I had to call my mom because I didn't have any single cent on my bank's account anymore, yeah, trust me I was left out in other country with just RM5/Rp. 15000 on my hand.
There are so many pros and cons at the moment and I, myself couldn't list them down because I'm totally confused. Some more my mom asked me to take accounting-related major again (EWW) while I actually have this plan to take something related to risk management.
Anyway I miss the party life too :D well, who doesn't? and I actually miss the study time too (just a little bit).

The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad?
Alice Kingsley: I'm afraid so. You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.

(Alice in Wonderland 2010)

RIP

2010-07-26T22:18:00.003+07:00

Yesterday, my mom called me and she delivered such a bad news. One of my auntie whom had fought really hard against her ovarian cancer has passed away yesterday afternoon. Actually her cancer has been healed and she was on her therapy but too bad the cancer has already spread to her digestive system and lungs as well. When I heard the terrible news, I asked my mom about my auntie's children at the first place because to me the one that must be hurt the most would be her family. It was too fast and unpredictable.
Truth is I was not really that close to my auntie because I rarely met her and every time I visited Bandung I just had around 1 day to meet her because she stayed outside the city. I will miss her cookies D:
Rest in Peace, beloved auntie.

Steal the Time

2010-07-01T21:42:00.003+07:00

For the past few weeks every time I opened my blog account I feel so stupid because I did nothing other than staring at the page blankly, so today instead of doing the same stupid things over and over I decided to write something. As today, very first of July means 2010, the year of us has been running half way so why not doing a really quick revision or review about what has been done for the past 6 months.
I remember that I wrote that I want to learn Mandarin this year and seems like this resolution will come true very soon. Once at one very late meeting with my manager, we came up with this idea to give some foreign language course to everybody whom might be interested and taa-daa, let's have some English and Mandarin courses :D I will have my course started next week every Thursday and Friday after work from 5 to 6.30 for the whole 3 months. There will be 15 people in the class and the tutor would be one of our colleague too. Nice.
My first resolution has come true, I've been working for 6 months :) I'm making more friends (less enemies of course :D). Be a better person? I guess. I didn't fucked up too much I think. But I still talk too much in the church D: and I haven't found the love of my life (oh well, Bonamana isn't the love of my life LOL) and I still didn't know what I'm looking for, I feel like that I haven't achieve anything that makes me feel so WOW. Anger management? I found that it's a very hard resolution, sometimes I found myself hold the anger inside my head but I would curse the object of my anger afterward, very disturbing sometimes. My last resolution is to write more, as you can see I write less and lesser each day. I don't know, so many ideas but not really much time.
Oh yeah, another resolution, meet my ultimate bias. I don't know but I've got a very good feeling about this. It will happen soon, if not this year then it would probably happen next year. Wish me luck, peeps.
So.. not bad, huh? I guess I did quite well. I still have another half way to go to spend this year of us with my best. Daebak!

a very late speech

2010-06-06T01:26:00.004+07:00

Usually once a year, exactly on my birthday I will make my own speech. Last year I missed it, instead I made a thank you notes on my facebook. This year I didn't celebrate my birthday, I'm feeling old and I supposedly didn't say out loud about my birthday, it's scaring the hell out of me. So I just brought some snacks to the office and shared it with my colleagues. The truth is every time someone wished me a happy birthday and hugged me I tensed. okay, wtf with my weird phobia.

So the first thank you is thank God, you spared me another year of bless. you still accompanied my every moves and protect me. thank You. thank you mother, father, brother and relatives for the wishes. thank you friends tho' very far away but minds are still close enough. thank you colleagues for the wishes. thank you my EverLasting Friends. thank you muses. thank you, you and you too.

I came to realize that I've been officially legal now. Okay, I did some many illegal things back in the past when I was still so-not-legal. But never mind, most people come to their senses only when they are legal. LOL. I'm still the same girl you know, or you thought you know. whatever. I wrote this at 1:53am so forgive me for some incoherency :D

spotted: b turning a year older, but not necessarily wiser. blow out your candles, b. this will be better in the dark."
gossip girl

Fanfiction #2

2010-05-26T00:57:00.004+07:00

Title: One Fine Spring Day
Author: batgirl
Genre: romantic/angst
Rating: G
Character: First person POV it could be anyone, Kim Ryeo Wook and some minor characters
Disclaimer: If I own Kim Ryeo Wook, I will not make story about him, I will make stories with him :)

Mother never told me how was the day looked like when I was born, she was probably too exhausted to find out the weather outside. I don’t know but people told me that giving birth could be really painful so I didn’t expect mother to tell me the situation when she delivered me to this world.
“It was one fine spring day.” Ryeowook told me when we both eating our lunch at the yard.
“You were there?” I asked him, eyes grow wide, expecting him to tell me more.
Ryeowook nodded.
“I held your tiny hand, auntie was so happy.”
So, it was one fine spring day, my 3 years old mind said happily.

--

As far as my memory could recall, it was one fine spring day when I found Ryeowook crying at the corner of his class room. He was on second grade while I was on my first.
I didn’t have to ask.
Ryeowook’s figure was too small and delicate compared to other boys at his age, makes him became an easy target for bullying.
“Let’s just go home and eat some ice cream later.” I assured him and take his right hand.
To my surprise he just slapped my hand and continue his sobbing.
I pout and stomped my feet, walking back home without him, knowing whenever Ryeowook and I fought we always make it up in a split second.

--

That day came out of nowhere, it was just another random day when butterflies and bees flying around the flowers. Yes, it was one fine spring day. But the news you told me was like a big bomb that you just easily dropped.
Ryeowook and his mother came home from hospital, his mother talked about few things I didn’t even understand and she cried badly. I wanted to ask Ryeowook but he just sat there beside his mother and looked so out of place, not to mention very pale.
When both mothers went to the kitchen because my mom insisted to make some tea to calm Ryeowook’s mother down, I asked Ryeowook about what had happened.
When he didn’t answer and just put his grim face, I playfully tickled him, knowing that somehow he would soften but unfortunately he didn’t.
“Go away! I don’t want to play with you anymore.” He yelled furiously. “I’m going to die very soon!”
It didn’t take a second for me to cry. I remember that I never cried that hard in my life before. I have so many friends around but I couldn’t take it if I have to lose Ryeowook.
Both mothers came out from the kitchen, Ryeowook’s mother quickly apologized for Ryeowook’s tantrum and my mother just nodded as if she understood about this whole matter leaving my seven years old mind blank.

--

“Dear, Ryeowook... He is... Sick.” Mother told me, few hours after I finally stopped crying.
“Sick? He could just eat medicine just like what I did and he will be healed soon.”
“No dear, it’s not a normal disease like fever or flu, it’s very bad disease that can take people’s live.”
“But Ryeowook already went to hospital, right? So it should be fine, right?”
Mother sighed. “Just pray for Ryeowook every night before you sleep, ok?”
“Mom, will Ryeowook die?”
“Everyone will die but it’s not our right as human to choose when and where.”
I buried my face on my pillow as mother hugged me. Looks like there will be no one fine spring day anymore.

--

As the day passed by, I barely saw Ryeowook. Mother said he was busy at the hospital to get his disease cured and Ryeowook has been discharged from school as well. Mother said he was homeschooling.
I heard everything about Ryeowook from mother because I didn’t have any chance to meet the real person. I still remember the last time he yelled at me and it felt like ages ago. Spring came but it felt like winter for me.
“Hey.”
That’s why I was nearly fainted when I saw him, Ryeowook stood there in my living room. He looks taller and paler too. I could hear both mothers chitchatted in the kitchen.
“I’m still alive, I didn’t die like I told you last time. Therefore i wanna said sorry for everything.” Ryeowook said those sentences in a super fast rhythm, he sounded more like mumbling to himself.
I giggled. “Nothing to be sorry for.”
I always have soft spot for him, vice versa.
“Let’s go outside, one fine spring day is waiting for us.” Ryeowook offered.

--

“Actually today I wanna say goodbye to you. A short goodbye.” Ryeowook added when he saw my screwed face when he mentioned about goodbye.
“Why?”
“I’m going to Japan, my disease will be cured there through an operation and once I come back we can always have one fine spring day forever, even on winter days.”
“I’ll take that as a promise.”
Spring never felt so warm and calm.

--

It was one fine spring day although it was raining heavily outside. I came home, soaked all the way from my head to my toes but I didn’t have any time to even breath when I saw mother’s face. I ran straight from my piano class eventhough it was raining because mother told me over the phone that she has something important to talk and she told me to come home directly once I finished my class but I’ve got a feeling that I couldn’t wait for the class to finish so I just ran in the middle of heavy rain.
Ryeowook, that liar, he told me that his disease will be cured through an operation but he forgot to tell me that the operation has only 40% chance of success.
Even the sky cried so hard.

--

Today indeed is another one fine spring day. I’ve already spent so many spring days, ups and downs, bright and cloudy spring days. Some with Ryeowook and some weren’t. But today I put all my activities behind and decided to spend my one fine spring day just with Ryeowook. Two of us. Without anyone, mothers, friends, just two of us. Okay, probably three.
“Ryeowook-ah.” I whispered.
Mother once said that the most painful condition for a mother was when she had to watch her children passed away before her but the feeling of losing Ryeowook was too unbearable for me although he is not my child.
Unconciously, I touched my tummy which looks slightly bigger than the last time I visited him.
“The baby is not going to due on spring, but I’m sure it will be one fine spring day when the baby borns although it's probably just another random cold day of autumn. If he’s a boy I’m going to name him Ryeowook just like you. Jongwoon has already agreed. And if she’s a baby girl then it will be too bad for you.” I told him then added my laugh.
Lots of people still wondering why I keep visiting you every spring, Jongwoon dislike the idea too at first but slowly he understand. You were my very first friend, you were one of the very first people whom I met.
“You know what? I still hate you for lying to me at that time, but I learn to forgive, you have your own reason I’m sure. Next spring when I visit you again, I will bring Jongwoon and the baby.”
I patted the gravestone that has your name and your picture on it as a goodbye sign. You surely love spring because year by year whenever I visited you, it was always one fine spring day. Today’s no different.

FIN

Some Words

2010-05-20T01:04:00.004+07:00

I look at your face and after a split second I found a new idea
I kept staring on your face trying to compose some words to write
I tried to translate what your eyes told me
Putting some coherent words in perfect order
but at the end
I wrote nothing
I want to blame you
but actually it was my mistake
I was too mesmerized till all the words gone
and have you ever wonder what's left?
This pure heavenly bliss

Thank you <3

Missing

2010-05-16T13:40:00.004+07:00

Oh Gawd it's been so freaking long time ago since I wrote something on my blog. Please blame the stupid laptop and stupid internet connection for the past few days.
Latest news is I've been so caught up with work but thank God everything run smoothly. The thing I hate about once I worked too much is the fact that I didn't write something. Hello, I need to write! It's like a craving for me, but every time I got some ideas (yes, sometimes I got it at work) I was too drained to write it off once I settled down at home and I just let the ideas flew off through the window and ended up with browsing or updating forum. God, can I be more unproductive than this?
Trust me, if I lost my sense of writing I'd rather die.

Anyway I've already wrote the second part of my previous posts but I need to review few things about certain parts, I feel like I made it too cheesy. I'm so over cheesy love story (but all love stories are kinda cheesy, that's why we love them LOL). I need to write and practice on more angsty stories *insert psychotic laugh here*.

Well, it's May already and I just realized that I've been working for almost 4 months LOL and soon the fact which I hate to tell everyone is going to happen very soon. I'm going to be older by one year. OH SH*T! I hate this fact more than I hate someone's new hair XD
The best thing to do is doing some meditation to think about the past and what I'm going to do in the future rather than mourning about my soon-gonna-be-older-celebration. I HATE THIS!

Fanfiction #1

2010-04-02T15:28:00.004+07:00

Title: Heart-breaker
Author: batgirl
Genre: romantic
Rating: G
Character: Lee Tae Min & Kim Ki Bum (SHINee), Kwon Hye Jin
Disclaimer: Kwon Hye Jin is one of my own made character so please don't steal her :) about Lee Tae Min and Kim Ki Bum, till this very second they are still belonged to SME.

Tae Min woke up with a slight headache, probably because he slept at 3AM and today, he has to wake up and drag himself ready at 7AM. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the irritated feeling both on his eyes and his heart.

“Hi! I’m sorry. Do I disturb you?”
BLAM!
Tae Min accidentally dropped a book which he was about to put in the long shelf fully equipped by thousands of book that has been categorized in alphabetical order.
“Ouch!”
He hasn’t recovered from the first shock after he heard someone’s talking to him in this empty library plus a loud thump of his dropped book, yet it was added from a not-so-small cry.
On his reflex, he turned his head down and he saw someone. There was a girl who’s currently stroking his hair. Near to her left foot was a book that he dropped just now. It was clear that the girl’s head was hit by the book. Uh-oh.
“Aigoo... Mianhe! Mianhe!” Tae Min said repeatedly while making his way down to the ground from a triangle shapped ladder, a place where he spent his afternoon, piling books.
“Aiisshh...” she sighed.
“Mian...” Tae Min said while he grabbed the problematic book. Now they are face to face, Tae Min could see that girl’s face clearly. Tae Min couldn’t really remember who she is, one thing he’s sure about was the fact that she’s his senior. “Noona.”
“Gwenchana yoo. I’m just a little bit shocked. Dongsaeng ya, I need to find a book. Can you help me?”
Tae Min nodded. “What kind of book, noona?”
“Hmm... I’m doing my final project, I need a really good and complete book about fashion marketing.” She said eagerly. “Honestly I was rarely here.” She added honestly with a very cute grin.

Was it a fateful day? I don’t know. That day I supposedly not working, but one of my workmate was sick so I was asked to work overtime. Would it be better if we never met? Taemin wondering around his room while brushing his teeth. His eyes fixed to an object on his study table.

“Today is surely cold.” Her body shivered a little bit under a thick coat. Well, she got a name actually, her name is Hye Jin. Hye Jin noona.
Tae Min took a glance on his left side, smiling over this really cute noona. They have like 3 years age gap but their mind run on the same stage. Seems like they always cope with each other.
“Your smile doesn’t warm my body. Not even one degree.” She pouted.
By impulse, Tae Min grabbed her right hand (she exclaimed a shock “OH!”) and put her cold palm safely on his coat’s left pocket, together with his left hand. Their fingers entertwined inside the warm pocket and all of sudden, Hye Jin placed her head on his left shoulder.
It was a really beautiful night.

An invitation. A wedding invitation to be exact. Tae Min felt his head hurt. That wedding invitation sounds more like an invitation to his own hell rather than a happy ending wedding party.

Tae Min’s already fully aware of Ki Bum’s existence. Yeah, Ki Bum hyung, his senior in the science faculty. Not like him, Ki Bum is the north while he is the south. Compared to Kim Ki Bum he is a total geek. Actually there was no problem at all until Ki Bum showed this little attention to Hye Jin. His Hye Jin noona.
Not even one student could be compared to the famous Ki Bum. Although he came from science faculty which is a home for those nerdy geeks (like himself, Tae Min thinks), he made an exception. He should be in the art faculty or any cooler faculty rather than being here with thousands of nerdies.
One day, Tae Min just stared blankly when he saw Hye Jin noona and Ki Bum hyung had a dinner together at the canteen. They looked so...
Maybe it’s because the age, fucking age gap makes things awkward.

On the cover, written so beautiful was a name of the love of his life. Kwon Hye Jin. Tae Min always has this dream, to have his name engraved there too, beside Hye Jin noona’s name but too bad it wasn’t. It will never be. He passed the full body length mirror after he dressed on his tuxedo, he tried to smile but he just couldn’t.

“Tae Min-ah...” Hye Jin noona whispered on his right ear.
It tickles both his right ear and his heart too.
“I think I’m in love.”
Tae Min looked at her in disbelief. “Ki Bum hyung?”
Hye Jin noona nodded once and she made this huge sweet smile on her beautiful face.
“I wonder whether he loves me or not.” She said while poking her index finger on Tae Min’s palm.
Tae Min hold her hand, it could be his very last chance.
“He is” he said bitterly but trying not to show it on the surface.

Tae Min reached the wedding’s location which is an old-fashioned church at the urban side of this town. Just in time when the wedding ceremony was about to begin. There she was...

“Long time no see.” Tae Min started a conversation.
Hye Jin noona nodded, somehow her face showed a little doubt which Tae Min couldn’t figure out why.
“How are you?” Hye Jin noona asked awkwardly.
It was their first meeting after Hye Jin noona graduated and moved herself to Seoul, together with Ki Bum. That day was exactly three years after they saw each other for the last time. After that, they kept in touch but after one year or so they barely remembered. Tae Min was already on his last year in the university, ready for work since some good companies offered him to.
“I’m good. How bout you and... Ki Bum hyung?”
“We are doing good actually we are getting married soon.” She blurted the fact out.
Both of them stayed silent for few minutes before Tae Min broke the silence.
“Congratulation, noona. Please be happy.”
Hye Jin noona nodded. “Gowawo...”
Tae Min made a mental note to stock more cigarettes and liquors once he headed home, he needs an escape.

She looks so stunningly beautiful, she hurt Tae Min’s eyes. After those years, he’s still in love with her. Too bad... He just a hopeless lover who could only silently wished that his Hye Jin noona will live happily ever after with someone that’s clearly not him. Pathetic.

At the end, when Hye Jin noona walked down on the aisle with Ki Bum hyung towards the way out to their beautifully decorated car, somehow Tae Min didn’t know how, their gaze met. A drop of tear escaped from Tae Min’s left eye and so did Hye Jin noona. But maybe it was an illusion because after a blink, all he could see was Hye Jin noona and Ki Bum hyung, hand in hand, linked so perfectly, walking happily while passing his figure.

A/N: sorry for any grammatical error, english is not my mother language and this is my first fanfiction in english :) Happy reading!
1. Noona= sister
2. Hyung= big brother
3. Dongsaeng= little brother
4. Gomawo= thank you
5. Gwenchana= it's alright
6. Mianhe= I'm sorry

We are not those morning persons

2010-03-28T00:08:00.002+07:00

Turned off the big giant white lamp
We then turned on the small one
The yellow dime light spread through the whole room
The ray woke both us up
It’s time for the city to sleep
And for us to have fun
Through the empty streets and lonely parks
We run and run and make fun of people who were already asleep
They said that we shouldn’t be together
What the fuck they know?
We are the one who live our own lives for so long
As the cold wind blows the night away
We went back to our paradise
Turned on the big giant white lamp
And turned off the small yellowish one
Nothing’s heard
Except your soft humming
Accompanying us to our lucid dream

Earth Hour 2010

2010-03-26T23:16:00.007+07:00

It's been one year since the first time I knew about Earth Hour (shame on me, the first event was like on 2007) and tomorrow it will be Earth Hour 2010.
So people, let's switch off our unnecessary lights just for one hour tomorrow (the time depends on which country you are in, as for Indonesian it will be around 20:30 to 21:30). Let the earth smile :)

Lights will guide you home~

Wordkill

2010-03-18T22:18:00.004+07:00

I wonder tonight
Where could he be?

He possibly stayed there
At the darkest corner of this town

Or he could be there
At some random red-districts

I run breathlessly

Could it be because I wanna run away from him
From his temptation

Or could it possibly because I wanna grab him
Grab his delicious attempting soul

Sinners
We tried to stay away as far as possible from each other

But unfortunately
You weren’t at the the darkest part of this city nor the dirty red-districts

You were there every time
Watching me from the city tower above
Eyeing my every single step with your lustful dark eyes
Waiting for the right time to trap me
Love me
Kill me

I came up with this poem after I saw my muse :) thank you, always. <3

Breaking Dawn

2010-03-09T22:30:00.002+07:00

we could be a perfect couple
just so you know
you captured things
even the fastest one into thousands of images
while i whispered words by words
telling people the ugly truth or the fascinating drabbles
for we love the smell of the rain
we sit at the balcony quietly
closing our eyes
trying to read and listen to God's mind
lens and pen left behind
and when the rain stopped
we drive slowly
approaching the vanilla sky
say hello to the dawn

I personally think that my poem is getting more and more weird, maybe I should write and continue my story either.

Ugly Explanation

2010-03-08T20:41:00.004+07:00

"Today I had an anniversary." H said calmly after one sip of Corona.
"What anniversary?" C asked curiously.
"A death. I'm saying goodbye."
C and H are not really close although they have a blood-related relationship and H never failed to amaze C every single time.
"I know you hate goodbye the most."
"That's why I'm here. I'm saying my goodbye through the wind cause I was not be able to say it directly. I was a coward, no I am a coward. I always will be one."
"He might be dead but he's probably watching right now."
"How do you know? and why are you still here? I know that you want to go to that party so badly." H looked uncomfortable.
"I always believe that someone who's already dead will be a star, kind of stupid but it will make me feel better, somehow. You know I lost my girlfriend right? Back when I was in high school." C said with a blank expression. His eyes had this glassy cover on each of them.
Suddenly H feels like she's about to cry. She is pathetic. She is not the only person in this world who's been experienced a lost before but she always act like one. But C is different, C is not a coward and C doesn't ditch his girlfriend right before her death. C didn't kill his girlfriend.
Too bad, H took a big gulp of Corona. I killed him and I will never ever be forgiven.

Oh God, I didn't mean to write all those things and I don't think that this part is going to be included in my story.

?

2010-03-07T18:57:00.000+07:00

he rocked that stage
he stole my spotlight
no matter how slick that fingers played
or how fast his body moved around
i don't care
cause he stole my spotlight
and he will never return it back to me
unforgiven
but yet he is irresistible

Discovery

2010-02-28T21:58:00.004+07:00

I've just discovered myself more today. I found out that I need to feel all angsty to be able to write something. Not a proper poem, just few random sentences which will be a perfect poem later :D. You know sometimes when I drive or just stare blankly at something, I couldn't stop my mind from wondering around. I could think about anything, sometimes my brain scares me a lot. I guess I've been thinking about few things too much.
Next, I just realized that I'm easily attracted a guy by his smell. No need to smell like Euphoria by Calvin Klein. Just a simple soap fragrance could make me turn around to look at you twice :) Well beside cute face and nice smell, what else? LOL.

Life is a bitch

2010-02-21T22:23:00.004+07:00

Today I had a really heart-breaking moment, it was happened when I accompanied my friend who worked at the emergency department today.
He came, I mean a baby boy came in a blanket handed by this woman to the nurses. I didn't see what's wrong till' I saw the baby. He was so freaking small and from what I heard he was born when his mother was just 7 months pregnant. His weight is like 9 ounces (NOT EVEN 1 KG!) and he looked so red and weak. The woman who brought him happened to be a nurse who helped him to be delivered to this world. I was about to cry (or faint) when the nurse started to put him on the incubator and some more put an IV needle on his super tiny hand. Why the situation has to be so cruel for a new born baby?
More heart-wrenching situation happened when the baby's father came and asked us how much it will cost if the baby stayed in our hospital till he recovers and ready to go back home. The cashier staff tried to be honest and told him the total and it was 5mil/day. ok, no kidding here. PER DAY. That man had this look on his face, you know, that 'how could this happen to me' kind of look. It was so damn sad. This time the reality doesn't bite. It swallows.
At the end, the baby and his father went back probably to the 1st hospital where he was born and I just hope and pray with my deepest heart that the baby will recover and someday I will see him running round and round~

What Girl Wants

2010-02-15T19:56:00.003+07:00

I miss those moments when I...
- could get up at 3pm in the afternoon
- and didn't feel guilty at all
- yet I went to the nearest mall
- and spent my day there till midnight
- shopped
- watched movie
- played arcade games
- and sit at the Starbucks or Jco with my friends
- gossiping around with Grande green tea latte or Oreo donuts

I also miss the days when I could...
- go to the club till dawn
- danced and drunk like crazy
- sipped our JD and Vodka
- and skipped tomorrow's class
- feeling wasted
- but somehow it was unbelievably good :D

In my mind I couldn't resist to envy few people because they...
- could eat steamboat whenever they wanted too
- shoved down some sushi and sake
- ate so many green tea ice creams
- went to Wendy's
- enjoyed Korean foods
- while I'm sitting here wondering about those foods

My motto of the day is you get some, you lose some. Happy interpreting! XD

Celebration

2010-02-14T22:40:00.001+07:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY PEEPS!

Fear, I hope you go away!

2010-02-10T20:13:00.003+07:00

For the past few days I've realized that my biggest fear is not death or any other type of usual phobia such as height, crowd or whatever you could mention. My biggest fear is getting old. Whenever someone asked me about my age I always said I'm 20 although I'm gonna be 21 by May and whenever people called me Ma'am by mistake (which is happened only in my home country, sadly) I feel very insecure about that. Secretly I stocked some wrinkle reduction product at my house (ok, not a secret anymore) even though I showed no sign of getting wrinkle in near future, well I don't care better safe than sorry.
Mom said getting old is a process that everyone couldn't avoid. People will get old, have some white hair, wrinkle and everything as time goes by. The important thing is ourself, our personality whether we could be a mature person or not because it will be so sad if we have so many wrinkles and we are not mature as well (double phobia now).
Okay, based on the law of attraction I shouldn't be worried about a thing too much because it will become a real thing pretty soon T^T
NOOOO! I better think that I'm still young and wild and free and 17 probably XD

GRAZE

2010-02-05T20:56:00.003+07:00

i rested my head on your chest
while we blew smoke rings
and drank beers straight from the bottles
we seized the day
we jumped we run
we chased the flying leafs
we had fun fooling ourselves
"screw this world" we said
cause we are both aliens in other's point of view
we are trapped in a strange world
people told us to change to transform
"to what?" we asked
"to be someone" they replied
but we didn't give a damn
we never
at the end
we throw snow balls on each other's bodies
make a giant snowman
kiss under the tree
come back home

Absolutely have no idea about what has been written up there :)

I guess work is a part of art :)

2010-02-03T12:26:00.005+07:00

Hey people it's finally February here. My favorite phrase should be "time really flies" hehehe but hey it's true because I feel it was like yesterday when i wrote my resolution for 2010 and suddenly the first month of 2010 has actually ended.
My life's run normally for the past month, job was alright and I wanna tell you that I've just moved to another department. Now I'm working in in-patient admission for probably one whole month. I've got a new schedule as well from 9-5 and I have my holiday on Wednesday (okay you can laugh out loud) means I have to work on Sunday because you know, people can't choose the day when they are going to get sick. Working in the in-patient is a little bit harder than taking care the out-patient one because I have to contact the nurses to confirm which room is available and if the patient came from the corporate or had this insurance cover then I have to call the insurance office to make sure that the insurance will cover their stay in the hospital. Yesterday I took care of both issue at one time but the problem is we had no more VIP room left, the situation was kinda stressing me out because I kept thinking that the patient really need to get a room very soon and I felt really worried because if it was me who got sick I really want my room available FAST. Thank God my coordinator saved my ass there and suddenly after she talked to the nurse the room was available :D
Since I worked in this new department I always came home late cause I have to finish some reports regarding all the in and out patients from the previous month, the coordinator wants me to learn everything :) But you know, I kinda miss the situation in the out-patient, it was more fun out there and now I'm trapped in this transparent room of in-patient. LOL.

Black Winged Angel

2010-01-19T22:19:00.003+07:00

He is the true fashion
the walking mannequin
His whole body glows
like a sunset ray
He has a halo on his head
and his steps paint the street with the color of rainbow
The beautiful white wings on his back
calling every sinful creatures to take a closer look
or
probably trying to grab some of the feathers
asking for God's forgiveness
but no...
I'm not gonna do that
cause little did everyone knows
that he is a fallen angel
Heaven and its residents rejected him
threw him down
but...
he knows
that he has me
that's why he falls
we fall

Oh my forgive me for sickening the hell out of everyone who happens to read this post =3

Into The New World

2010-01-16T23:09:00.005+07:00

Hello bloggers! ^^ Well, i'm a bit tired now but i would like to tell you all that I've started my job today. Seems like my 1st resolution of 2010 has finally come true. Well, I almost had the 3rd one accomplished but because I got the 1st one then I have to sacrifice the 3rd one. Well, you get some you lose some but I'm so freaking sad right now, it's like the chance to meet the boys, to meet him, has about to come true and it was so closeeeee but too bad my work schedule doesn't allow me to meet my own husband. Maybe another chance *crying in wookie's embrace*
Actually my job has officially started since yesterday but it wasn't so real because at the morning we had this introduction first, orientation, a bit training, signed the contract, and did the uniform fitting as well. After that, I had to read the SOP and also memorize the vision and mission of my work place. oh well, feels like VU days :D
Anyway, for the next 3 months I'm going to be in the learning process of my work place (that's why my work schedule is soo unfriendly T^T). Everyone keeps telling me to learn, and yes i have to learn or else I'm not going to be transfered to the finance/accounting department, like I wasn't studying for 17 years already. hehehe.
My work today really reminded me of my old Zanmai days XD the difference is I have to sit down and stare at the computer screen for 7 hours instead of running and yelling like what I did in Zanmai because basically the admission department is like the part of serving the customers as well, as for me the patients :) Plus, there was this China guy complained stuffs too. Yes, just like that. He complained in english and I translated his words to my friends there. Thank God he didn't accuse me for not speaking chinese because I remember that my customers back then used to said 'you are a chinese, why you can't speak chinese?' like goddamn i prefer myself to speak in ring ding dong language if I could. kekeke. Well, just like in Zanmai too, Saturday is a busy day for in patient admission because people keep coming to meet their preferable doctor and my 1st day of work just went like that, I didn't realize that it was the time to come back home already since we all so busy running, typing, and writing stuffs here and there. But overall it was fun, the seniors are really really nice, thanks to them and sorry for them too because I kept asking stuffs. mianhee. To be honest I miss my part-time days when I could just say 'hey boss, I couldn't work today cause I've got additional class' like screw you schedule!! LOL. Whatever, gotta love my new job, it's like few small steps that will lead to a giant leap, i believe :)
So see you all readers, wish me luck for my new job. Nite.

New Year Poem

2010-01-14T22:36:00.002+07:00

He had this smile all over his face
no matter how rough life has treated him
he played his worn-out guitar
and started to sing an unknown melody
whole-heartedly
the black thick smoke didn't invade him
the ignorance didn't make him desperate
and then he looked at me right on my eyes
and told me
"Happy New Year, miss."
surely i wouldn't need my iPod tonight
i would just sit here and listen to him
all night long
"Happy New Year too." I replied while giving him some pennies
then we exchanged a smile
He went to the right and I went to the left
We had a different path
but still
I'd rather listened to him all night long
than coming home to see you

Oh well, nothing really. I want to dedicate this poem to a street singer aka pengamen whom I randomly met in Bandung on my holiday.
Did you know that a very first person who greet me with a happy new year was a pengamen? :)
Thank you, mas pengamen! ^^

Free Fall

2010-01-09T00:45:00.002+07:00

I watched the old videos
each of them recalled the memories of us
I whispered our favorite songs
the melodies were still too clear
I screamed your name every single night
what was that for?

it's useless
i guess
cause everytime i see people's faces
i see yours
pasted on each of their faces
it's sickening

afterall
having you is like a life cycle
I breathed you out
but at the end
I breath you in again

and..
one day..
once our fingertips touch
you and I know
it doesn't enough

OMONA! i really should stop making more creepy poem for God's sake!

Last Stage, I Hope...

2010-01-07T23:09:00.003+07:00

Last Monday, I've got another call from Eka Hospital said that I had an interview with the manager. I was like OMONA, i wasn't ready at all. But mom said just deal with it and please don't feel to much pressure, just take it easy. How am I going to take it easy, anyway?
So with nothing in my mind, I entered the interview room on Tuesday morning, should I answer the question with Ring Ding Dong? Hell no! I was freaking scared and nervous to death.
But, it turned out to be... unexpectedly weird. LOL. The manager was graduated from Swinburne University in Melbourne so instead of asking me about accounting and stuffs, he asked me about crown casino! :DD The interview went quite well and at the end, he asked me when I'm going to be able to work and I said ASAP, then he said once I passed the medical check up I could start work on 18. Is that great? :)
Soon after that, I followed the MCU procedure. I had my blood and urine taken, got my chest X-rayed and I had a consultation with doctor. To be honest, I'm such a chicken when it comes to needle and blood and they freaking took 3 tubes! I almost fainted there, I guess, because the nurse kept saying things like 'breath' and 'relax'. I looked like a mother who was about to give birth. ckck.
After the test and everything, I talked to the doctor and she said everything is fine. Little did she knows that I had a sickness and virus called wookietis. hahaha.
So, right now, I just hope and pray for another call to confirm my job, my first real job! ;)
Good nite people.

2010, Year of Us

2010-01-04T16:07:00.004+07:00

Hey people!! I'm so excited since this is going to be my first post in 2010! Well the year itself sounds pretty promising, right? Amen! Let's not do any recap since I could always look and track back my previous posts in 2009. LOL. Let's just say I've been through a lot in 2009 and I wished for 2010 to be a better year :)
I spent my last 2 weeks in Bandung with my family and crazy relatives, Christmas and New Year were pretty normal and I didn't spend really much money this time except for my new iPod touch 64GB. woo hoo, say hello to him, his name is wookietis :DD Planning to get a new phone which is LG Chocolate Love but it doesn't come out in Indonesia and I've got to work first since the phone is not that cheap yo.
Had lots of funs with cousins and some relatives whom I (surprisingly) never met before but they are super duper kick-ass fun! My auntie from Sydney also came along with her 2 kids and grandma's sister too. The fun thing is she brought some liquors which is a cheap cheap deal in Australia :)) good thing about staying in Australia LOL. So the day before I went back we had a small party and get together eating ikan bakar (home made! they fished them before) like crazy and drank Chivas (thank God no one drank straight from the bottle), reminds me of old crazy days which already left behind. Time flies.
To be added, I got sick when I was in Bandung possibly because of the food poisoning I had when I was eating in this restaurant, maybe because of the sayur asem since no one ate that. oh my such a pain in the ass, I couldn't eat a freaking chili for quite a long time!!
So.. I've been thinking about what should I put in my resolution list for 2010 and I come out with nothing (0.0). Well I actually have :)
1. First should be getting a job, yeah I got a another call from Eka Hospital but so sad I was in Bandung but they promised they will call me again *finger crossed*.
2. Next maybe I should really find the thing I've been looking for which I'm not really sure what it is D:
3. Forgive me about my fandom obsessiveness but I really wanna meet THEM.
4. Be a better person for sure, always stay positive.
5. Shut my big mouth when I'm in the church and listen more.
6. Making more friends.
7. Find a true love, seriously I don't even know what love is.
8. Learn Mandarin.
9. Anger management.
10. Write more either poems or stories or update my blog and LJ or whatever.
See, this is what poped up in my mind and I write it straightly in this blog and forgive me if they are so awful. Hey, I didn't have any resolution in mind before so these should be good :)

Okay, this is my first post in 2010. Let's pray everything will be good till the next resolution :D Amen! Happy new year bloggers!~

Love Drunk

2009-12-19T16:28:00.003+07:00

Hello, martini!

Goodbye, Jack Daniels!

A free soul

His scent is stronger than any liquor ever

His parted lips tasted sweet like raspberry vodka

Sweat covered his beautiful face

Like he just washed it with a pure shot of tequila

His moves so slick it looks like a perfect blend of cocktail

He’s so trance

while

I’m drunk

I can’t get enough of you…

Of him…

Blackout

I surpass the edge

I’m intoxicated

Poisoned

But somehow

I feel more alive than before

So I told the bartender

To place another drink

Hello, life

and

Goodbye, my sanity…

Well, another creepy poem of mine. The muse is... I don't know who, I'm not sure. Anyway Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance. See you next year people :))

PS: Resolution will be posted after my short holiday ;)

Another Day Has Passed Me By

2009-12-17T21:25:00.005+07:00

Guys, I didn't tell you that I had my interview with Eka Hospital last Friday. No, I didn't have any sickness and I am not pregnant with Wookie's child. LOL. Yes, I had an interview for job there :D
So yesterday night they asked me to take this test and today I spent my whole afternoon with the test. The test was exactly the same with the one I took when I was still in high school, I know it was an IQ test and somehow I feel that my IQ has been decreased or something, maybe this brain has been fried for too long T^T (and I sucked really bad on those cubes test).
Anyway I got another test which was the same with the one I had before, the one that asked me to add up all the freaking numbers and surprisingly I finished all the rows LOL the person who was in charge for my test told me that the result of this test could see whether we could handle stress or not.
Then after that I had another one which is quite similar to my IQ test too. I had to draw one person and describe that person, like OMG I can't draw or paint for God's sake so I could tell that behind my back the psychologist will laugh furiously. Oh yeah, I had those 8 boxes test as well, the one which asked us to continue the unfinished line like dots and something like that to be a better picture.
And finally I had an interview with the psychologist who asked me about marketing things, omona I didn't expect that tho'. Maybe my test result showed about I should work in marketing department. Whatever, everything has been done and I've done my best. So, the very last thing to do now is praying. Amen.

Spot My Desktop

2009-12-16T01:46:00.004+07:00

Rules:

1.Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screen capture of your desktop. It is best that no icons be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun.

2.Post the picture in your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below it if you want. You can explain why you preferred such look or why is it full of Icons, things like that.

3.Tag five of your friends and ask them to give you a Free View of their desktop as well.

Sooo

*click to enlarge*

Anyone feel free to take this little refreshment :)

And one little explanation about my current desktop: I'm sobbing at his beauty right now ;___________;